Kim, my condolences on the loss of your father. Grieving is a very difficult process that is different for everyone. My 33 year old daughter was killed on Memorial Day of this year and my emotions range from feeling nothing, to sadness, to anger, to rage and everything in between. It has been a little over two months now and very early on I would not accept phone calls from anyone. I sent an email to family and friends explaining that my emotions were very raw and unpredictable so if there was to be any communication it was through email or texting. I would not even speak to my parents! When I was ready, and not before, I began calling certain people for very short conversations. There are still some family members I will not talk to... If your mother and grandmother cannot see what they are doing to you then make it clear to them and do what you need to get through this difficult time. LIfe as you knew it will probably never be "normal" again. As daddy's little girl you were probably exceptionally close and your life will be different now. Not bad, just different. Give yourself time; seek professional help if you have not already done so. I have found this website to be very helpful and you will find the members are really nice. You might also want to consider joining the "I love my Dad" group on this website. Take care of yourself and I hope you can find just a little more peace in your heart as each day goes by.