Jodi,

     Your story sounds like what my sister in law will be saying soon.  My brother in law was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer on August 9th 2012.  He had been sick for a couple of months and had been told that he had an infection.  They said probably e coli and he was trying to get plenty of sleep to  allow his body to fight it off.  Finally on the 9th he asked his wife Sandy to take him to the ER. They have no health insurance and therefore I know that the pain must have been terrible or he would not have gone. Within 2 days we were told that he had days to weeks so my husband left for Orlando to be with his brother Roger.  Roger decided to go to our home town of Cincinnati Ohio to die.  It is much easier on the kids so they can go to work or stay home when needed.  We got another call last Wednesday that my husband should get to Cincinnati if he wanted to be able to talk to his brother. Roger's tumor has grown and can be seen from the outside his body taking over his hips now.  He is on so much morphine that he barely ever reaches consciousness and when he does come around the pain is sooooo bad that he has to have more pain killer.  The end of the agony is soon but for Sandy the horrible grief process will begin.

     I do grief counseling but when it is you who experiences this terrible loss somehow all your knowledge does not seen to help.  If you would like to talk just email me at mawmaw1591@gmail.com I hope you and your family will find comfort in God's loving arms.  (2 Thessalonians 2:16, 17) ". . .may our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father, who loved us and gave everlasting comfort and good hope by means of undeserved kindness,  comfort YOUR hearts."
     Brenda