Steve was 35 years old, six foot five around 300 lbs. He was healthy and bigger than life. I am 45. We went to sleep and when I woke he had slipped away. I have no answers...waiting on those. Thank you for speaking with me. I am so sorry you had the experience...I would not wish this upon any living creature.

Jillian,

Lost my best friend and mom 3 weeks ago today. Empty is how I feel. My husband left me 2 years ago for a whole new life after 20 years of marriage. My sisters are selfish and cold hearted for their own reasons. I am completely alone except for my loving pets. Going to work at least keeps me busy. I am a veterinary technician and enjoy it. I find very very little meaning to my life these days. I am so happy that you had the experience of a wonderful marriage all of the years that you did. You were blessed with a great man. Dying perhaps is the easy part...learning to live without them is unbearable.

Just checking in with you to see how you are doing.  Sending you my love and prayers.  Deb

Thank you. It heps to know I not as alone as I feel. I can relate tothe shopping panic attacks. We went shopping every Sat. morning, together. She knew what we neded and I knew what we could afford. It worked out perfctly. Now I have to make three or four trips to get everything. I actually turned and asked her if we needed a flyer in the store the other day. She wasn't there and isn't going to be there. I  completely lost it, just left the cart sitting in front of  the door,  ran to the truck and went home. 

HI Jill, I lost my husband on 1/1/11. It still seems like it was yesterday. It was from an accidental gunshot wound. This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through. My kids, 22 and 20, are away at college. My husband's family lives in town but it still feels like I am on my own. I have joined a griefshare group for the 2nd time. It helps so much to be with other people that have lost someone because they know exactly what you are going through and they don't try to "fix" the situation.

I feel the same way.  I don't feel so all alone with my feelings and I know that I am not crazy.  Everyone feels empty inside and some can't even think of carrying on without their loved one.  That is how I feel.  I don't have children so I sit here and think what do I have to live for...Randy was my life.  Even though he was in prison, we talked to each other 3-4 times per week and he wrote to me everyday.  He was murdered in prison for trying to help someone.  He got into the wrong people's business.  I don't know what to do without him in my  life.  We were together 8 years and knew each other inside and out.  I can't even imagine losing someone after 35 years.  You must still be devastated.  Chat with you again soon.  With Love, Deborah