Hi Jack,

Haven't been on here in awhile, just thought I would see how you are doing.  I'm not crying as much as I used to, and that makes me feel like I'm going to eventually forget, which I do not want! I feel guilty for not crying all the time, it sounds silly, don't know if you can relate or not.  I'm going to have my husbands memorial in Maryland in June. Try to get some closure. My step daughter just came to visit me this weekend, she lives in Wisconsin. So it was a nice weekend.  Hope you are doing better, and I hope to hear from you soon.  Take care. 

Just wanted to say Hi............. am thinking about my mom, and feeling sad, its always hardest at night.

Our little boy was a maltese/bichon.  We were babysitting him for a neighbor ..and she had a stroke and a heart attack at the same time, and was no longer able to take care of him, so we adopted him.  My husband LOVED that dog more than anything.  He was a wreck till the day he died because of the dogs death.  We have his ashes in a beautiful hand lasered wooden box with his picture on top.  I'm still looking for the "perfect" urn for my husband.  I just get so sad, I always end up closing out of the internet and going to bed before I can find anything.  Everyone tells me to be happy for him because he is out of pain now....Its just not that easy.  Someone you have loved with your whole heart and soul to all of a sudden be gone....that is really rough.  Now I'm old, and broken, so I feel like I'll never feel happy again.  The real kicker is ... I'm o.k. when I'm at work.  Go figure!