Dear Heather,

Thank you for reaching out to me. Mother was along home with Hospice. She died in her bedroom and that was her wish. I held her hand when she took her last breath. Mom had COPD, emphazema and all the rest of it. She quit smoking over 20 years ago. I begged her to quit smoking. She was addicted but quit and I was so proud oher!!!!! She spent the last 20 years trying to take such GREAT care of her body. She ended up with throat cancer lasy year. That murderer called cancer. In the end the lungs just could not perform. She was cancer free after enduring radiation and chemo. Such a fighter. I wanted to die watching her go through it. She wanted to live! I am so alone now. My sisters are so dysfunctional and have betrayed me on a lot of level. I have my mothers wonderful sister, my uncle and cousins in Michigan that love me and support me. I live in Florida. Get the book "Walking Through the Garden of Souls". Reading fills the empty nights. I miss her so much. She was my best friend and my greatest cheerleader in life.I never realized how strong and amazing she was until I watched her suffer and then put her life in God's hands. I watched the life leave her body...still hard to re-live. My friends on this site have embraced me, given me love and advice. I think I would be in a very bad place without them. My faith in God and in my Lord Jesus Christ is growing and growing and I have put my life in God's hands. I know what it is like to watch your mommy suffer and there is not a damn thing we can do to save them.  Your and mne are in a much better place. Get the book....I am here for you Heather. Our moms died at home on their terms. Such a gift we could give to them. I am LOST. Love Sue