Oh Heather, I am so so sorry.  I cant imagine what you must feel like right now.  To have something like that happen right in front of you, well, I simply can't imagine it.  All I can say is I am so sorry for you.

I've been traveling this path of grief for 32 months now and everyday I question why.  Why my husband?  Why him, why the way he died, where is he now, are we going to be together again, I need to know things there are no answers to.  So I keep asking why? I keep asking it over and over.  It's probably one of the things that will never change.  

Some things do change. But slowly.  Ever so slowly.  All I can tell you is to take small steps and concentrate on the children and what they need and it will help to distract you from the grief.  I didn't have children but I had to try and do things to distract myself.  It is a daily struggle and you will wonder why many many times but focus on the little ones.  

Come here when you need to unload because every one of us gets it.  We know how you are feeling and we are here to listen.  Each of us does the same thing and as horrible as it may sound we all help each other by being able to tell out loud how hurt we are.

Take the best care you can and don't expect too much out of yourself right now.  Just get through the basics.  And kiss, kiss the little ones. Hug them tight.  It hopefully will help.

morgan