My name is Don and this is my first post here. I lost my wife of 20 years last January to cancer. She battled it for 2 years. I tried to prepare myself in advance for this but I guess I didn't do such a good job because I still fell apart. I went to Griefshare and thought it helped. Then lately I feel like I have been going backwards instead of forwards. I had a vacation in July and just stayed home. I had too much time to think and remember and it turned out really lousy. I never thought I…