I always read the circumstances of those who have just joined this site and feel for all but mostly for those who have lost a spouse because that is my own very personal loss.  So writing to everyone is impossible and when I read, I feel over and over my own struggles.  

Cheyenne, I am sorry that you have had to find us but for many of us this site is a lifeline.  It allows you to grieve and to know that many others are feeling the same kinds of feelings you are.  You are in such an early stage of the grief and I can only say to take things an hour at a time.  Sometimes only a minute.  Don't look too far ahead.  Try to take baby steps.  Washing your hair, having something to eat, crying, but try to stand up often.  Try to get out of bed.  I cant tell you how to do things but try to do things.  

It will seem impossible and yes you will want to do otherwise.  But all of us have felt and still feel many of the same feelings and I guess what I am saying is you are not alone even if it feels that way.  Millions of us are suffering right alongside you.  We have no answers but we look to each other for the support to know we are not crazy for feeling the way we do.  

I am so sorry that you have lost your husband and you are living in a totally different universe but I do know what you re going through and I just wanted you to know someone is listening........

morgan