Hello Angela, let me start off as saying I am so sorry that you have come to know this pain. I have 5 other children besides my son that passed away...6 in total. Having other children does NOT replace the lost of one. I would be grieving the same for any of my children, it just happen to be my oldest son's passing. I don't know any parent that wants to live to have to bury their child, doesn't matter how old they are or what the circumstances are that ended their life. For me my pain and my anger only gets worse with each passing day, time has NOT healed my pain. Each day is a cold reminder that my son is NOT here. It hurts to know that the world goes on as if your child never existed when you just want to scream to everyone "hey, don't you know my son is gone!!!?". Life's little distractions somehow help me survive each day. I am living but I don't feel like I'm alive. Sorry that I don't have any comforting or encouraging words but I will say it helps to talk to others that truly get it, truly understand and won't tell you to just stop it  and move on. This site is a good place to be. Maybe one day we will come to know brighter days. Sending you hugs and love. 

Angela trust me I know how you feel, the pain is unbearable still to me and it will be 10 months on the 18 since I lost David, whom I always called my buddy David was 28 years old. I know it is hard I have started a memory book and a journal that might help you. I talk about David quite often it helps me keep his memory alive which I will do no matter how hard it is on me. There is not a day goes by that David isn't on my mind, and yes many days and nights I still cry. I am also trying to know that this is not how David would want me to be. I will try and help you in any way I can. There is a couple songs i listen to that also helps. Sailing on the ships of Heaven and a new one I found by carrie Underwood Ill see you again try and listen to them

Angela welcome I am new at this too. I don't know what is bothering you for you did not say, but I have lost a beloved son 10 moths ago the worst day of my life. I don't know how I can be of help but I am here if you would like me to be. I also need lots of friends to ease some of my pain. Sorry for what ever has happened to you