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Comment by morgan on October 21, 2015 at 1:37pm

Whoa, Tom, pretty lady, your Debbie.  So so sorry.  We do get so attached and then we are so devastated trying to come back from the formidable walk to death's door.  I can only say that as much as I am functioning better on the outside my insides are eaten up.  I post here (under lost my spouse) quite often because I just don't now what else to do to salve the wound and there are others who pour out their own angst so for some reason it gives me a place to think I am not totally off my rocker.  

I could never be with anyone else as my husband was the only man for me and after 33 months of this I am exhausted, spent and keep wishing that I didn't have to go on but unfortunately I keep waking up.  I do what I can to get through days and have tried to fill them with things that I used to enjoy, or I was good at or at least fill time but my heart and soul isn't in it. Maybe I come here because I want to know that others are suffering too and that I am not in this deep lonely hole because my reason is odd or could be overcome.  I think this is a way bigger event in life than it is explained to be.  

Ok now I am going to start rambling so I'll cut it here.  It's unfair and looking at your Debbie's picture I just wanted you to know that I think her life was cut short too fast, it was wrong and there seems to be some inescapable intent in the universe to make some of us deal with this when we have no earthly reason to.  I am so sorry…….