Thank you Deborah, I am doing okay just now  - not so many days where I want to lock myself away from the world.  I still feel the loss each day that I wake and realise that Chris wont be coming back to us but it is getting easier to bear. I still talk to him each day and hope for guidance - his is the first name I think of each morning and my last thought at night.  I have so much that I wish I could have said and so much still to say.  Even now 28 months later, I am still meeting people that don't know that he is no longer with us and those meetings are so very hard and uncomfortable.  I hope that you are finding things easier too and you are in my prayers each day.,  God bless you and hold you in his hands and heart.