Jillian Margaret Dalziel

Female

Perth Western Australia

Australia

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About Me:: I am 59 years old. I have 2 adult children, a daughter who will be 31 and a son who will be 28 this year. My son lives with me. Without my children I would not be me. They are my heart and soul. I like to knit, read, spend time with friends and my children,do crosswords and play computer games.
About my Loss:: My husband passed away on 23rd February, 2009. We had been together exactly 35 years to the day. He had a massive heart attack at home and I could not do anything to help him. He had his first heart attack in 2000 and had several more over the years and although I knew he was getting weaker, I was still shocked when he passed away. I didn't get to say good bye to him and I didn't get to tell him that I loved him that morning as I had every other morning we were together. I miss him so much and really need him with me as we have had so much happen in the last two years and I have needed him to talk to and help me get through all that has happened to my family and I have felt that no-one that understands how I am feeling. I wake every morning and know that I am alone still and I just don't know how to go on. I get through each day but I am only functioning robotlike and I don't know what to do or who to talk to. How do I keep going?

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Deborah Dodds

Just checking in with you to see how you are doing. Sending you my love and prayers. Deb

Jun 17, 2011
Sue Waxman

Jillian,

Lost my best friend and mom 3 weeks ago today. Empty is how I feel. My husband left me 2 years ago for a whole new life after 20 years of marriage. My sisters are selfish and cold hearted for their own reasons. I am completely alone except for my loving pets. Going to work at least keeps me busy. I am a veterinary technician and enjoy it. I find very very little meaning to my life these days. I am so happy that you had the experience of a wonderful marriage all of the years that you did. You were blessed with a great man. Dying perhaps is the easy part...learning to live without them is unbearable.

Jul 18, 2011
Karen

Steve was 35 years old, six foot five around 300 lbs. He was healthy and bigger than life. I am 45. We went to sleep and when I woke he had slipped away. I have no answers...waiting on those. Thank you for speaking with me. I am so sorry you had the experience...I would not wish this upon any living creature.

Oct 2, 2011