Patricia, Thank you so much for your kind thoughts AND for e-mailing to me. I really feel very alone. Do you go by Patricia or Pat or Patty or.....?
You are right, most friends do not understand the grief we feel. My very dear friend (30+ years) is the only one who reaches out to me with any kind of compassion.....she brought me flowers on Valentine's day because she knew how I was hurting without Jim. The holidays are the worst!! again thanks, Kathy

Pat, So sorry for your loss.  and thank you for the warm welcome. I just believe no one understands this pain unless one has lost their "soulmate" I am not very savy on this site but learning. Please feel free to contact me anytime!

Jan

Hi Patricia, sorry i misssed your annversary. I know that must have been hard! Thats alot of years with one man! You talked of that last time with him, when he left. Yes i went thru that, just looking at him and asking why he did'nt wait for me to get out of the bathroom to leave! and checking to see if he was really gone.one eye particially open, yes i see this day very often.don't want to, but, its just always on my mind. Now, im wondering why i feel like im gonna feel better once the 1 year annivarsary coming up.i cant explanit, less its because people keeping telling me the first year is the hardest.dont see that changing tho. and like u the desire to move just isnt there. Yeah, im going to cousling, but my mom is behind that. she does'nt know how to help me. so she does these kinda things. drags me out of the house every chance she gets, and ,has my cousin getting me out. not comfortable ''out'' yet.