Hi Linda
hope you are doing better. I have been on anti-depressants and they help so much with the crying. It is like night and day. If I am off them I am a crying, sobbing wreck. When I am on them it is difficult to cry. I get sad but tears won't come and it somehow passes. They really are amazing. I don't think I will ever stop thinking of Denise and being sad.
Also therapy has helped I'm still in it. It is great. It is the only thing I look forward to.
I hope you are doing better and you can message me anytime.
Love
Mike

Hi Linda,

Yes......this is not fun.  I'm just coming up to the one year mark.  August 16th was our anniversary (37 years).  I was just a 19 year old kid when I married my husband.  He is all I've known for so long.  I miss him so much.  I know what you are talking about.  I go out to do things with friends and 20 minutes after I get there I don't want to be there.  Then I go home and sit and cry because I'm so lonesome. 

I just can't stop reliving that last day over and over again.  The doctor asking us all to leave the room while they turned off my husband's heart monitor.  Returning to the room and seeing him laying there so still.....no color.....no breath left.  I'm sure you went through the same.  It's very traumatic.  That's why they call it PTSD.  I think I'm probably going through the same thing.  I just don't have a lot of desire to move on.  My kids have both moved on ~ I know they miss their dad but not like I miss him.  Nothing in this life prepared me for the death of my husband.  I used to think about what it would be like but we have no idea it will devastate our souls like it does.  Feel free to contact me whenever you bet the blues.  Nobody understands what we are going through.  Maybe we can chat online sometime.  We have to move forward somehow.  We need to be surrounded by others who understand what we go through.  Try to have a good day.

Hi Linda,

                 I havent been so good.. I just been taking it one day at a time..