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Kelly Jo Perkins
Female
Pleasant Hill, MO
United States
Profile Information:
- About Me:
- I am 42 years old and have five children and two grandchildren. I work full time in a business that I started with my husband and mother and father in law 17 years ago. We have worked together for so long it is like we all live together. But in a way that is a good thing, we do see each other every day, which is more than most families can say.
- About my Loss:
- On August 13 my husband passed away of a heart attack at the age of 46. We had been together since I was 18 years old. He had been had chest pains in the past and I convinced him to go to the hospital. He had four stents put in in the past five years and was on alot of heart medications. WE were getting ready for work that morning and he said his chest was hurting and thought he was just gonna stay home. I said "Ok. But if it gets worse will you call me so I can take you to the hospital?" He told me he would, so I handed him his medicine and went into the bathroom to get ready for work. I just shut the bathroom door and remembered something I needed to ask him, so I went back in the bedroom and he was laying half on and half off the bed not breathing. I, in all my medical knowledge started crying out his name, which brought all of our kids into the room. We called 911 and I attempted CPR. The ambulance took him after shocking him three times. They said they had a heart beat when they left. By the time we got to the hospital, he was gone. It was just like a dream when the dr told me he was gone. I lost the only man I have ever loved. I love him, and now I am broken. My heart, my soul and my spirit are all broken. I go through life, like I am suppose to. I get up and go to work, but then I come home...that is all I do.
Pamela
Kelly, Your story is very similar to mine. My husband woke up after I went to work not being able to breathe and my older daughter gave him an aspirin and called 911. Three hours later he was gone...
As far as shopping, I had a similar issue as I took y daughters to the mall this weekend and was done on driving homme listening to Christmas music made me start to cry with streams of tears just pouring out of my eyes. My kids didn't even see it as they were in the back but it was so sudden and unexpected...I know how you feel ; (
Dec 2, 2012
Pamela
Kelly - I feel the same as you as we were 'Mike and Pam' to everyone and now it is just Pam and daughters. That is ok but I miss Mike so very much as we were together since I was 15 when I started going out with him. I had him in my life so very long that I am lost without him and don't know what the future will hold. I am just taking each day as it comes and try to live the best way I can with tears coming each day whenever they feel like it. I am busy at work and with my two daughters at home so that keeps me busy. The thoughts are always there with a hole in my heart...
Dec 16, 2012
Raj
Thanks for your message. I am very sorry about your sister and husband. In my case, we had good 36 years of marriage yet I am in pain. Yesterday was the 2nd death anniversary and it was extremely hard to deal with. I can totally relate to your loss especially loosing him at such a young age. Like you said... Life goes on without them. Please keep in touch and I pray for your pain to go away. Holidays do not mean much any longer because the joy has been sucked away. Take care.
Regards,
Raj
Dec 22, 2012