Thank you for the lovely poem I try so hard to feel a sense of Mark around me but I just do not.  I have read that when you are initially bereaved you can want contact with your loved one too much and maybe this is true.  Today is the 21st anniversary of my dad's passing and normally Mark would come with me to the crematorium to put flowers down where my mum also is.  It is only 4 years in July since I lost her and when Mark left me because that is how I see how my loss as abandoned, I was still getting over her death.  I had been her full time  carer for many years but it was still a shock losing her.

You seem to be a very spiritual loving person and I am very grateful for your response.  All my kindest thoughts.

My visit to the medium was very disappointing.  She never came through with any names which meant anything to me.  She talked about my mum being there but not her name and even though I was determined not to give any clues away she seemed to know the appropriate questions to ask to get a response she could use.  She gave an outline of Mark's personality and was completely wrong.  There were a couple of things she mentioned about static on a small radio I have which is quite a common thing making us believe to be a sign and I said he never said goodbye and she relayed the message that he had given her to say he never ever said goodbye when he had left me in the past.  I am left more upset than before I visited her and I had some aweful dreams of my mum last night.  I do not think it is something I would recommend unless the medium was well recommended.  The whole thing has actually made me physically unwell and I did not have any sense of being welcomed into the Spiritualist Church.  I went for a walk today and found myself getting angry with Mark for leaving me so alone.  If there was a hell on earth I feel I am living it.  Sorry to be so negative, I just keep getting very tearful today.

My warmest wishes to you for your interest.

Hi Marie

I just read most of your poems, I had to stop, the tears were flowing. They are beautiful and you are very talented.

Lisa