Sharon

Female

Torrance, CA

United States

Profile Information:

About Me:
57 year old married mother who is having a hard time coping with the loss of my son, Troy.
About my Loss:
My beautiful 24 year old son died suddenly last Sunday. We are heartbroken and unable to function.
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Comment Wall:

  • Dolly

    So so sad to hear this Sharon... I remember the moment I knew... I remember feeling like ICE in my veins and even the light in the room being dimmed and weird and then hearing myself saying in my head... OK this is the real thing... and the pain crashing in on me... its like a bubble shut out the whole world and trapped me inside with PAIN and I had NO strength ... I developed ringing ears and rashes... still have them to this day and Brandon died in 2013... little by little I feel I have had glimpses of things that have given me a hope that we will be together again.. that he is alive... just not HERE... many would say I'm just crazy but I don't care what they say.... all I care about is one day seeing my darling boy again... Brandon too died very suddenly and unexpectedly... his birthday is this month... I don't see the world like I used to... I can't let myself care as much or something.. I don't know... maybe I will again... I don't know what to expect from life anymore.. and am afraid to find out...

    Feb 14, 2015

  • Jill E

    Sharon I am so sorry for your lose. I lost my 33 year old son December 7. I think that you will find many of us that care and understand. Hugs

    Feb 14, 2015

  • Sharon

    I am no longer afraid of death.. Because I want so badly to be with him again. It's strange how your life is fine minute then changed forever. I feel like I'm in a bad dream and I can't wake up. I'm dreading the funeral. I hope I'm strong enough to make it through. I need to go for him.

    Feb 14, 2015

  • Jill E

    My youngest son lives in Northern Arizona. He graduated from U of A and found a job there. He has called me when he says he is having a "sad time". I try not to let him know of how bad it is for me. He would worry himself to pieces. I know he doesn't tell me everything he is feeling also because he knows how much I would worry about him. When we got him here to Sacramento when his brother was in the hospital Josh was already intubated and unconscious so he didn't to talk to him even though Josh was incoherent. We have sold our home and will be moving to Arizona to be close to him. We have no real family left and I have to be near him. I am feeling so over protective and constantly worry about him. It have been just a bit over 2 months. It feels like so long ago but at the same time just yesterday, I miss him with my whole being. When I went to Josh's service it seemed like I was on autopilot. Talking to people I did not know. People that came out of obligation. You will make it through it because you have to. I so many bad days I call them "bed days". If it wasn't for my youngest I don't think I could make it. I worry about him all the time. Please don't ever hesitate to leave me a comment. I am here for you. We are here for each other. I do tend to ramble now even more than I used so I apologize for that. Hugs and love. And as my sons say "Peace"

    Feb 15, 2015

  • Jill E

    Oh Sharon I am such a jerk, I rambled so much I didn't include some of my other thoughts. I can't imagine what your daughter must be feeling. Her memory of her honeymoon will forever be also the memory of losing her brother. One of the happiest times now has included the very worst of times. Oh I am sending her a big hug too. All my love, Jill

    Feb 15, 2015

  • Jill E

    Sorry one last thing... I want to also want to not be afraid of dying. I want to see him so badly, but then I worry what if??? I need to hang on desperately that I will get to see him again. Josh and Derek are my whole life and one is gone. He left so suddenly, unexpectedly...

    Feb 15, 2015

  • Jill E

    I have been kind of wishy-washy on religion for a long time. I was exposed to many, many religions growing up. I pray so hard that there is a heaven then I know I will see my baby. There has to be a heaven. Please...I beg there is one...

    Feb 15, 2015

  • kim

    Sharon, thank you for e mailing me, im so very very sorry you have to join this group, yes the pain we are in is unbearable. I cry all the time. I just want to die to be with him, and I pray every night to. my life is over without my shawn, my only child. I go see him everyday even in snow passed my knees. I never sleep much any more. it takes every thing I have not to take pills to go with him. everyday is a fight to go on, but I feel theres nothing to go on for any more. lease tell me about your son if you want to.  hugs and love to you   kim

    Feb 17, 2015

  • Jill E

    Sleep is horrible. As you can see here I am wide awake. I am going to call my doctor in the morning. Just had a horrible dream that my youngest son was sick and I was going to lose him too.

    Feb 19, 2015

  • Jill E

    Sharon, life really sucks. I miss Josh so much. I pray I will get to see him again someday.

    Feb 19, 2015

  • Jill E

    Last night was the worst yet. Sleep from 9:30 to 10:30, then not back to sleep until 3:30 am and got up at 5:30. Plus my heart pounded so bad. My doctor called me yesterday evening, she deleted a med that I am on for something else. See if I sleep better tonight. If not then she is going to change things around. She mentioned a med that is for blood pressure that can help with the horrible dreams. I believe she is hopefully give me something for the anxiety. I will let you know. She is going to call me Saturday-tomorrow. Talk again soon. Hugs

    Feb 20, 2015

  • Fran

    Sharon, as nurses we feel that we can take care of everyone else, we forget to take care of ourselves. We feel we're a failure if anyone dies on our watch, especially a family member. I'm so sorry about your son. My son is 25, my daughter is 23 and I can't imagine being without them. With my husband now gone the kids are my lifeline. 

    Feb 20, 2015

  • Jill E

    Hey darlin'. I am so with you. I will be 57 in April and I feel so much older. I wish I could read. I use to love to read but can't concentrate. I totally understand also about thinking you are having an OK day then BAM it hits you right in the face and you are back to the bottom once again. We will hold each other.

    Feb 22, 2015

  • PJ ESPO

    Hi Sharon

    Thank you for acknowledging what happened to me  and  I am very  sorry for the tragic and sudden loss of your son. We who are here can honestly say "I know how you feel " and truly mean it .You are welcome to share your feelings with me at any time for I share and understand your pain ...

    PJ

    Feb 25, 2015

  • Jesse's Mom

    Thank you for your prayers. Thankfully the judge ruled against her request and she will set in jail until our trial date in July. Her lawyer tried to minimize my son's death to a mere "trafic accident".

    Feb 26, 2015

  • Rj

    Sharon...how are you coping today? Our lives shattered, i know we both lost our boys exactly one week apart, i lost my heart on 2/1/15. From one grieving mother to you and all the others.

    Mar 24, 2015

  • Monique Angelich

    I cant even let myself think about it. Who can understand? Do I want them to have these thoughts? It seems cruel to share my dark thoughts.

    Mar 25, 2015