Mark,Ii went through the VERY same thing!Please go to www.victorzammit.com,He's a retired attorney from Sydney Australia,and he has  studied the afterlife for over 20 years using scientific method.There's also a story called"Warning,this show will change your life forever"It's about a man who just lost his wife in a car accident, an the girl next door who tried to do all she could to comfort him.

Please,you need to do this now!!

Dear Mark,

I am so very sorry for everything you have had to endure. Most of us totally understand where you are coming from. We have felt every ounce of pain you are feeling right now. I am also an orphan and have no family either. Yes, life is full of pain and horrible things that we are forced to experience. You are in the threshold of the worst unmeasurabale pain right now. Been there more than once myself. When our moms (and dads) pass to the next world, it is simply their turn to continue of their journey to a different place. They are not gone. They are still our moms and dads. We are still their sons and daughters. They are just someone else creating a new life there. You will be given permission to go when it is your time. Do you think that this place we now are called earth is all there is to us. This life is such a small piece of what it is all about. Instead of feeling angry and hatred start reading about the next life. Your dad and mom are in a place that is full of only love and greatness. They earned their way there. Be happy for them. It is a much better place Mark. Don't hate God. Just like there is good in the world there is evil. Evil creates cancer, fatal car accidents, drownings, murders. I know so many people that do feel God has abandoned them in their life. Not true. Cancer comes to torture, death comes to relieve that pain and suffering. The ultimate ending of our lives is when and how. If your life is beyond what you can manage right now. Just your entire life over to God. What do you have to loose? I read that your life has been a horrific journey. So...your journey so far has been learning about profound pain. Maybe that is the reason you are still on this planet. To recognize pain and learn from it. When my mother, my only parent passed June 2011 - my life changed and the life I knew GONE. I put my life in Gods hands and it has been bearable, over unbearable because I did that. It is OK to be angry with God. Just don't blame. My mother was my world. I have had to find a way to just be Sue now. Every day I do whatever I can to make her proud of me. When my number is up..I am READY!!!!! But until then, I get the message that God has sent to me. Please accept my friendship and support! Sue

Dear Mark,

I do understand what you are saying. I am sad that so much has happened to you in your young life. Our paths have crossed for a reason. Maybe somehow we can help eachother in some small way. I don't judge people for how they feel about God. I think it is important to have something spiritual to believe in. What do you think happens when we "die"?

Hi Mark,

Thanks for your help, I've chatted with a few people here, but most were dealing with prolonged grief.  This is very new to me, the wound in my heart is still open  I often feel like I'm alone on a desert Island.  I'm trying to find some understanding, I think it helped a little.  Anyway I checked out your profile, we really should keep in touch, Maybe we can help each other, being that we're in the same place things might get easier.  

Thanks,

Tim

I am alone too, no family, my mom was my family.  I don't know why I keep on breathing but I do.

I'm so sorry............. There is nothing wrong with you  for not wanting strangers, or anyone for that matter to touch your moms stuff......