Jillian Margaret Dalziel

Female

Perth Western Australia

Australia

Profile Information:

About Me:
I am 59 years old. I have 2 adult children, a daughter who will be 31 and a son who will be 28 this year. My son lives with me. Without my children I would not be me. They are my heart and soul. I like to knit, read, spend time with friends and my children,do crosswords and play computer games.
About my Loss:
My husband passed away on 23rd February, 2009. We had been together exactly 35 years to the day. He had a massive heart attack at home and I could not do anything to help him. He had his first heart attack in 2000 and had several more over the years and although I knew he was getting weaker, I was still shocked when he passed away. I didn't get to say good bye to him and I didn't get to tell him that I loved him that morning as I had every other morning we were together. I miss him so much and really need him with me as we have had so much happen in the last two years and I have needed him to talk to and help me get through all that has happened to my family and I have felt that no-one that understands how I am feeling. I wake every morning and know that I am alone still and I just don't know how to go on. I get through each day but I am only functioning robotlike and I don't know what to do or who to talk to. How do I keep going?

Comment Wall:

  • Deborah Dodds

    Hi Jillian.  Welcome to the site.  I am also a fairly new member. I lost my husband almost a year ago...May 31, 2010.  I will read more about your and your situation.  Take care my new friend... With Love, Deborah Dodds

    May 16, 2011

  • Deborah Dodds

    I feel the same way.  I don't feel so all alone with my feelings and I know that I am not crazy.  Everyone feels empty inside and some can't even think of carrying on without their loved one.  That is how I feel.  I don't have children so I sit here and think what do I have to live for...Randy was my life.  Even though he was in prison, we talked to each other 3-4 times per week and he wrote to me everyday.  He was murdered in prison for trying to help someone.  He got into the wrong people's business.  I don't know what to do without him in my  life.  We were together 8 years and knew each other inside and out.  I can't even imagine losing someone after 35 years.  You must still be devastated.  Chat with you again soon.  With Love, Deborah

    May 16, 2011

  • Annette Dominguez

    HI Jill, I lost my husband on 1/1/11. It still seems like it was yesterday. It was from an accidental gunshot wound. This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through. My kids, 22 and 20, are away at college. My husband's family lives in town but it still feels like I am on my own. I have joined a griefshare group for the 2nd time. It helps so much to be with other people that have lost someone because they know exactly what you are going through and they don't try to "fix" the situation.

    May 26, 2011

  • Arne Tonessen

    Thank you. It heps to know I not as alone as I feel. I can relate tothe shopping panic attacks. We went shopping every Sat. morning, together. She knew what we neded and I knew what we could afford. It worked out perfctly. Now I have to make three or four trips to get everything. I actually turned and asked her if we needed a flyer in the store the other day. She wasn't there and isn't going to be there. I  completely lost it, just left the cart sitting in front of  the door,  ran to the truck and went home. 

    May 31, 2011