Heather, thank you so much for remembering, you will be in my prayers also.

God Bless

Anna, your story brought tears to my eyes. Many of the stories here do but they also bring comfort somehow. How heartbreaking that your mom passed so close to Christmas. This will be my first Christmas without my mom and it will be a hard one. We always went to her house and she would have all this wonderful food made and we'd sit around and eat all evening long and tell stories on each other and eventually exchange gifts. It was sad to leave when we did. Mom was happiest when all of us kids were there and now I know how she felt. I still have two kids at home and one that lives several hours away and I don't think I'll get to see him this Christmas-that will be another first. It won't be the same but I'm trying to plan ahead a little and do things a little different so we don't all feel the pain of mom not there (even though we will anyway). Dad hasn't been able to keep up with the house on his own and it would take my sister and I a lot to get it ready for company so this year, we will be meeting at my house instead. My sister and I plan to make several of mom's dishes to help us all feel like a part of her is still with us during Christmas. There's just no easy way around Mom not being here anymore but I have to keep trying to put one day together after another until I see her again. 

Anna, my mom passed on 12/19, this year will mark one year.

I have mixed emotions, I cry still everyday, she was all I had and was taken so suddenly and unexpectedly.

This year has been a struggle for me.

Thank you David and Anna, 

God Bless

Well Christmas is coming and next week will be one year since my mom has passed.

I miss her so much, my life is not the same without her.

I just hope as time goes on the memories will stay, but the pain will soften.

I am new here my mom was killed in 2007 Christmas is less then a week away to me it is just another day I miss her so much

Very sorry for your loss Joe..

ty sorry for your loss also

today is one year for my mom

instead of being sad I am going to live it like she would and be kind, compassionate and happy, at least I will try to

I made it through the day, thank you Heather.

I guess time will heal, I hope so.

I have good and bad days, some what if days, I surely hope things get better.

Somehow I have found strength I didn't know I had. I made it through the holidays with being an emotional mess. Much thanks to my siblings for all of us making the effort to be together. My birthday was Jan. 3rd and it was my first without Mom. It was hard. I have a saved voicemail message from Mom singing happy birthday to me a few years ago and I waited until late that night to play it to myself. It made me immediately fall apart for awhile but that's ok. I needed to do that. The one year mark is coming up in Feb. and I both dread it and can't wait for it to come and be gone so most of the "firsts" without Mom will be done. My life is so very different without her and changed in ways I never thought it would be. There will always be an empty feeling, an unsettled feeling that things aren't the way they are supposed to be. I know this will always be with me but I am learning to live with this new normal and I feel guilty for it. I know I shouldn't but I do. I wish you all a comforted day.

Lisa, I feel the same way, my life is so lonely without my mom to call and talk about my life.
I thought after the first year things would seem better, but I have cried more this year, because I know she is not coming back.
Sometimes I say I know she is happy and safe, but I have no one to talk to like her and I used to talk, every day, numerous times, just to say mom, where were you what are you doing.
I'm trying hard to realize this is my new life.

Olive I am sorry for your loss

You will survive, I am, and my mom was all I had

I myself take one day at a time

It has been one year and almost one month, I still cry

I found that being on this site knowing that I am not alone has been helpful.

Hello Olive. This may sound very strange but welcome to our club that none of us ever wanted to be a part of. The loss of my Mom has been the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with. The good thing about this site is that all of us truly do understand your feelings, your fear, your loneliness and even anger. We all go through it in different stages. I am very sorry you are now a part of this unfortunate club but I am glad you are here. You will find peace and comfort and help through the words of others who are right where you are or from those who have had a little more time to understand and make sense of how to live without our Moms.

So sorry Shellie

Shellie, I agree, my dad was ill and when he passed I knew that would be what would happen, my mom, died suddenly and unexpectedly from cardiac arrest, that is what I am struggling with.  

She was not sick, I spoke to her thirty minutes before she died and she sounded like herself.

Everyday is painful for me.

Oh Shellie, my heart goes out to you. I lost my Mom Feb. 24, 2016 so I am coming up on one year. I can't imagine the hurt of losing a Mom could be any worse than what I've experienced but I guess there are circumstances where it certainly could. My Mom and I were not arguing at all and I still felt guilty for a long time. I was her Medical Power of Attorney and had to make a lot of decisions when she got really sick in the hospital. I will always second guess those decisions but ultimately I now realize that her death was not my fault and i could not have prevented it. No more than you could have prevented your mom's death. There is no way you could have known what was going to happen. When God call us home, he calls us home. Try to focus on all of the wonderful memories you have with your Mom. Coming to this site was a great help for me. I don't feel like I'm the only person going through grief. I have learned from many of the comments here and they help me so much. I hope they will help you also. The book that David mentioned below was recommended to me by a grief counselor that I saw (only once). Recognizing the stages of grief has been helpful to me also. It helps to put things into perspective. May God bless you and give you peace and comfort and understanding. Be easy on yourself, especially now. 

Miss you Mom every day every minute and its been 3 years...seems as if it happened yesterday..

Danny , I remember you. i think our mothers passed away around the same time. It will be three years on February 18 for me. It is very difficult for me as well. Its just horrible. I never stopped missing mom even though I post less here. It becomes just sort of whats the point of talking about it...everyone is sick of hearing about it.

Hi everyone, for me it is one year and two months

I am just as sad

I miss my mom so much, someone please tell me does the pain lessen in time.

Some days are so bad, I feel like the anxiety will never stop, I try to think of good times, but I seem to revert to my mom is not here anymore.

It is difficult when you have no one to talk to, my friends are tired of hearing it.

I pray that my heart will heal

Casey i remember you. I dont talk about it with many people. Do my own grief work and talk to those who have actually been through a shock etc. Be well

Theresa the pain may lessen but do work on the continuing bond with the parent, talk to your Mom and then you will feel better. Friends are not the right people.

My Mom passed away on Valentines Day. I have been crying daily except for today. Right now I feel numb and tired. Is this normal?

Bluebell

Thank you Nancy for commenting and your reassurance.

To Misty and Olive-Hello. I wish we were not a part of group. But we are. For myself, it is not taking away the pain of her loss, but it is helping me feel not so alone. I have family, but it hard to talk to them openly. Because I am the baby of the family, they want to take care of me. I do not want to be taken care of. I just want for us to share our grief and support each other.

Nancy, what you said is true, my mom was all I had, I miss her everyday and I don't cry everyday anymore, I try not to, just when I need to.  But I try to get ahold of myself.

It just feels as though this part of my heart will never heal.

I pray every day that she is watching over me...I have not had any dreams I guess she's just not ready to come to me.

Bluebell, I cried just the same as you, I just kept trying to think how happy she is now and remember the things she used to say to me.  Grieve at your own pace, it could be short or long, listen to your body.

To everyone after my mom passed I went to confession, the priest told me God is right beside me.  My faith is the only thing that keeps me going.  Sure isn't my friends, because they have not gone through a loss so profound as I have, they have no idea.

I am glad I found this site. 

Olive, the answer is yes, I have extreme anxiety, I shake, its awful, even though it has been over a year, I did not want to take and SSRI, I practice yoga, it helps, but not enough.

I was wondering if anyone else suffered from this.

I pray it goes away, but as soon as I wake up it starts all over again.