Theresa, I know how you feel about being sick or hurt the first time without your mother to call. I fell down on the sidewalk on the way into the hospital for routine check ups and ended up in ER for X Rays. My mother was the first person I thought to call. It really hurts. For me I am coming up on 5 years and can say for me I still feel a huge void in my life. Feeling sad.

I am truly sorry for your sudden and devastating loss. My mother and I were so very close as well..I feel; a lot for you...I too find this missing part-the biggest part of me, an unarticulatable force....

Dear Theresa,

I am so sorry to hear you lost your mom but my heart breaks for you being unable to talk to her and say some final words. One thing I know for sure she loved you and felt your love for her. My mom and I have this kind of relationship. My husband and I are living in Ecuador as volunteer missionaries. The phone or faceTime is our constant friend. She always tells me how proud she is that we are serving and teaching the Bible to people who want to know the Bible.

I am glad to see you found this website and have made comments. Talking can be a helpful release. Following the death of all ten of his children, as well as some other personal tragedies, the ancient patriarch Job said: “My soul certainly feels a loathing toward my life. I will give vent to [Hebrew, “loose”] my concern about myself. I will speak in the bitterness of my soul!” (Job 1:2, 18, 19; 10:1) Job could no longer restrain his concern. He needed to let it loose; he had to “speak.” Similarly, the English dramatist Shakespeare wrote in Macbeth: “Give sorrow words; the grief that does not speak whispers the o’er-fraught heart and bids it break.” (quote from When Someone You Love Dies under the subtitle How Can I Live With My Grief? )

I hope you except my friend request and we can talk.

Brenda