My condolences to All here. We all are going through a very hard time it cannot be explained in words. I lost my mom on Aug 19 morning and there hasn't been a day I don't cry. Tears drip all day and everyday I still can't believe she's not with me, she was my life. I just feel like my soul has gone with her and I am just living without soul. I don't know how to cope with this anymore its hard really hard. Does anybody get dreams or signs of your loved one. My mom comes in my dream almost everyday I see her as an angel wearing all white and hugging me sometimes I remember the dream and sometimes I don't. GOD BLESS US ALL. I LOVE YOU MOM WHERE EVER YOU ARE LIFE WILL NOT BE SAME AS LONG AS I LIVE. 

Condolences to you Pankaj.

I don't think you can ever get over the loss of a parent.  Realizing that fact helps bring some perspective to it all, I think.  it is then a matter of endurance of grief and personal readjustment.  Not easy either, but just putting aside the "get over it" part is helpful, I think.  Re: dreams, man I've had a lot over the last few months.  Usually, me, my Mom and other relatives who passed on.  This week, it was me, Mom and my Aunt and Uncle sitting at a table chatting...my Aunt & Uncle have been gone 12 and 15yrs, respectively!  Had a dream about my Dad before that....he's been gone 37yrs!  Weird stuff that your brain does during these difficult times.

Angela that is great you are reaching out for help from others and I also have found comfort in reading grief books and I went and saw a grief counselor two weeks ago. It helped some just to be able to talk to someone who made me feel like I was normal for the way I felt. I also fear the day that the shock wears off and reality sits in and I realize I will never see her again. My thoughts and prayers are with you and know that you are not alone...Let me know how your counseling session goes tomorrow.

Hi everyone, its been a year and a half now since my mother passed away. I am still struggling to make it through....now these holidays aren't making it no better. I had a dream the other night of my mother looking at me through my bedroom window. I aint been to sleep since.......

My heartfelt condolences Pankaj. I agree with you in that our lives will never be the same without our mom's.

Jeff, any idea on the personal readjustment part of it in terms of how to go about doing this ?

Today we are going to a Holiday rememberance ceremony for my mom. I know it will be very sad when I realize that my mom will not be with us this Christmas. If it wasnt for my d a ughter I would of not even celebrated, but then again my mom would be mad if we didnt. I feel like everyday is harder I know it takes time but I dont think life will ever be the same. The cold weather makes me feel more depressed. I am sure others feel the same. 

I think at some point your mind recoginizes that despite the sadness, you will get through it.  All of my weekly rituals have changed now, my focus is a bit different and slowly, I readjust to the new reality.  I may not like it, but this is what it is.  It's funny tho', all those things that I had to do for my Mom that were a chore each and every week, I'd do them again gladly now.

I agree Jeff, everything we did for my mom at the end, was difficult and time-consuming, but i would gladly do it all over again, just to make mom happy.  Miss you Mommy

Two weeks ago today I lost mom.. feeling breathless 

hi guys, well tomorrow is going to be a tough one, its the 3rd anniversary of my mom's death...im singing in a christmas concert tomorrow, and its going to be my tribute to her...she is with me every day, I miss her so...lately I've been thinking about my own mortality and I need to come to grips with it, I guess I love life so much, and I've been having health problems....I have missed you guys, but I sometimes get depressed being on here, but I will be on here more regularly....wish me luck for tomorrow and I hope you all are ok

click on the link, its a pic of my mom, she is the lady on the right with the blonde hair....I LOVE YOU MOM!!!MOM.jpg

beautiful pic Rachel.  i love it.  thanks for sharing.

Niecy, I am very sorry for your loss. We are all here for you!
Let me know if you need anything. Blessings.

Thank you so much  Dia-Ayesha ,Boabie and everyone who has had my back the past two weeks... the loving support on this site is amazing .  More than anything I think I am in need of some reinforcement and hope that eventually the there will be light in my life again... 

Grief is a journey we take alone.  that is why this webpage is so helpful.  Even though no one understand what we are going through, those of us on this webpage understand, and we don't really know each other, just virtually.  I get more comfort from this webpage than i get from anyone else, especially family.  just knowing i'm not alone and not the only one feeling this way.

My condolences to Angela and Neicy and everyone.  Neicy was my late wife's name.

im getting thru the day, as i have said yesterday its the 3rd anniversay of my mom's passing, we had a beautiful christmas concert, it was great and im sure she was there cheering me on....im doing ok, a bit emotional, but making it through....you all have a good day as much as you can, and God Bless

for those of you who are grieving i want to share this with you it might give you comfort, i read it every day, i usually dont quote scripture, but this is called the beatitudes and i think it will help you on your journey through grief....it brings me comfort

blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kindgom of heaven
blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted
blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth
blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled
blessed ar the merciful, for they wil be shown mercy.
blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.
blessed ar the peacemakers, for they will
be called children of God
blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs
is the kingdom of heaven
blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me, rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you

there are beatitudes in Luke also....Luke 7 if you want to look it up, but I think this might help some people in here, I know it brings me comfort every day....I'm not preaching to you, just trying to help, it helps me :)

this has been a hard day for me with the passing of my mother 3 years ago today, but I'm making it....and I'm reading my bible, it helps me so....I hope you all find comfort my friends

Rachel  thank you for sharing the scripture sometimes a few words mean so much. I am sending you lots of hugs and prayers and hope everyone on here finds comfort just knowing that we can relate to one anothers feelings. Today was rough for me from the time I woke up I felt so lost. Its only been 6 weeks but I feel like everyday gets harder. I miss her hugs and her voice:( I feel like everyone around me thinks I am going crazy. I am not the same anymore I feel like I am just going through the motions with no purpose. Is it something others feel? My mom was my rock and she got me through so much. Sometimes I wonder how life will ever be ok.

Eliza thank you for sharing such a beautiful poem!
Rachel, I really enjoyed reading the scripture. I really
needed to read it, especially today. Blessings everyone!

Thanks Angela. I am not attending but I am going to a counselor on Thursday I hope it helps.

im doing ok, i got thru the anniversary of my mom's passing ok, she would have been proud of me, i had a christmas concert....i miss her so much, but i have a love in my life that is so wonderful, im blessed and moving on, but will never forget my dear mother ever....

thank you Jill, im glad you liked the passages, we can talk anytime

Today I was reminded by a well meaning grief buddy that it is another 11th which is the day my beloved mother left this earthly plane. Although the gesture is appreciated, I would not have wanted to be reminded as now I think of this day as the day my Mom went to our real Home which is the spiritual realm where all there is, is peace and love. Mom is with my father, and her own Mom whom she lost at 11 months old. There is that number again. How fortunate I am to have had a mother as wonderful as she, and to have complete faith that she continues loving me, helping me, protecting me, counseling me from above and when it is my time we shall be together again. God is the anchor, in my case as a Catholic it is Jesus Christ, as well. I respect all religions, and tell you to dwell into your spiritual roots as that is where the answers are, and the strength. 

Of course I miss my mother on a daily basis, I am human. But, it is my priority to stop having a pity party for ever, think of her first, not always about "the little me" and honor my parents the best way I can.

Have faith, you too will feel this way in due time. Let go and let God work through you to the point of acceptance and inner peace.

Dec 12th marks 10 months since my Mom passed but it's also the 1yr anniversary of the sudden passing of my Cousin's wife at the age of 64 (from a flu virus, if you can believe it).  I'll always remember this date, as my Mom kept saying she should've died instead...she was very distraught.  Exactly 2 months later...Feb 12th, my Mom passed away.  Numbers can be awfully strange sometimes....

I'm dreading the upcoming XMas holiday w/out Mom here...had a dream last night that she had survived...but, then in the dream, I realized that she was gone.  Very depressing.  Will do my best to get thru and honor her memory. But, this is the sort of thing that changes holidays completely as you go forward..

Jeff my thoughts and prayers are with you. I know what you mean about dreading Christmas. I feel like it will be my big reality check that she is gone. Somedays I think I wzke up feeling like shes not gone. Who knows maybe we havent even realized that they arent coming back. Our lives are changed forever we have a piece of us missing. I know its hard to imagine for some people what we feel but I am thankful for everyone on here for supporting one another.  

Cynthia Gee... I know it must have made you sad but maybe it would be cathartic to actually send her one.  idk... Just a thought 

Ditto for me Jeff. I feel a bit like Scrooge this Christmas.
My mom was here last Christmas. She was sick, but here. I will try and make it through somehow. I know she'd like for me to be strong for her, so I will try.

My Condolences to everyone.  Christmas without Mom and my late wife Denise, feels empty and meaningless again.  I put up mom's decorations and i'm trying to find some joy, but it's not easy.

We all miss our mothers very much. It is human. Since my mother went to God I do not celebrate pretty much anything. Not birthdays, nothing in general. Just think of the spiritual meaning of it all. I know we are all "Passing through" so I tried not to take anything too too serious. I know we will all be with our loved ones again, so that gives me comfort. Take care everybody. 

hello everyone, im writing this actually about me more than my mom, but i wish she was here to get me through all the fear im going thru with my own health, ive been very sick for a few weeks now and i dont have a solid diagnosis yet, im scared, crying all the time, and dont want to die....i hate feeling this way....im peaceful, I know I'm in God's hands, but we all value our health.....if my mom were alive it would stress her anyways if she knew how sick i am....i hope its found soon and I pray to God and have faith in him that he will heal me soon....this has been more than a terrible ordeal, I'm too young, I want to join my mother someday in heaven, but no time soon if I can at all help it....thank you all for listening and if you have any advice as to how i can calm myself down and not freak out over it, it would be sincerely appreciated....

As Christmas nears I feel so sick to my stomach. How will I be able to handle the truth that my mother will not be with us.  Please God give us all the strength to get through this holiday season. I miss you my beautiful mom and even though its only been two months I feel like everyday is harder then the next.

I'm miserable folks, this Christmas just isnt going to be a good one, I have to spend it alone and Im very sick....I have a gall bladder that has to come out and pain in my chest every day and i have felt that i would pass away....I hope this nightmare ends soon, its so awful, ive been so scared....I'm trying to release that, and go to church, your prayers would be such appreciated right now you all, the power of prayer is great

Rachel, I am sorry to hear you need gall bladder surgery.
I had many gall stones and had pain that was unreal! I
know what you are going through and it's not fun! I will
be praying for you and know everything will be ok.

Christmas eve. Last year Mom was here and everything was normal, we were preparing ourselves for her surgery in a few weeks, but of course we thought it would go well.

This year she's not here and I'm about to lose my job. I feel for you Rachel, going through these trials without the support of a mother is hard.

Whether you are religious or not, I wish everyone in here the gift of feeling a bit closer to their loved ones who have passed this Christmas.