I lost my brother a couple of months ago to suicide. At the time we did not see it coming. I am just in shock. He was an energetic, loved to have fun, never wasted a second of his day type of person. Every childhood memory that I have contains him. I could bring up anytime of our lives and he always knew how I felt. We were connected like that. I am at a loss. I just want to know why? He had so much more living to do. So much more fun to be had. My heart is so heavy. I miss him so.