As I lay in bed so tired and exhausted from the day I cant help but keep my eyes open, crying, just thinking about my parents. I just miss them so much. I would do anything to get them back which I know is impossible. I often think of trying out some medians like John Edwards or someone known to see if there is any message or sign from them. I just wish we really new if our loved ones are around us after they pass, watching us, hugging us, leaving signs. I dont want that to be something just to believe in I really want to know. Is it just the complete end when we pass or do our spirits live on. Now at the age of 25 and loosing both my parents very unexpectedly my belief in religion is out the door. but I still wonder about spirits. Its just not fair and I know that everyone on this site understands, maybe the only people to understand. I also have dreams about my parents all the time, they are alive and just a normal person apart of my dream but to have to wake up and realize it was all a dream is so hard. This makes me hate my life real bad.