My husband passed away November 25, 2016.  The day after thanksgiving.  I am completely devastated. He took care of everything for the 27 years we were together, so not only is my heart broken into pieces- but I am learning really really fast how to take care of myself.  I would not wish this combination of extreme grief and terror of not even knowing how to do things like upkeep your car or change the furnace filter on anyone in the world.  I miss him so very much, it feels like the pain will never get any better.