Hi: my name is Ronna.  I lost my soul mate 3 weeks ago 8/6/11 to an accidental overdose.  I found in bed laying next to me dead and had been for about 6 hours.

I have told there was nothing i could have done to save him, but It still haunts me.  Because he slept on his stomache, all the lividity went to his stomach and face. 

His family has disowned me and taken everything from me including some of my things.  I can replace those items,but not the sentiment behind them.  I was so hysterical, that when cops questioned me 15 minutes after I found hin, I could not even remember day it was.

Now, feeling like a burden and not needed by anyone.  With no contact from his family, my sister having new beau after her husband died last year, having her son cory and mydad and step mom, plus my step dad and brothers for support, she really doesn't need me.  I am the black sheeep, so am not close to anyone but sister and her son.

With all this, I feel like I should just disappear off the face of the earth.  I hope some one here has went through some similiar experience and can give me some  guidance