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Permalink Reply by Kali Grainger on August 27, 2012 at 11:02am

Gillian,

I am so sorry for your loss and what you are going through. I lost my fiance June 25th in a work accident... he was just supposed to go to work and come home like he always does... He left behind myself and our now 6 month old daughter Ellis. It has been two months and I still feel like I am waiting for him to come home... the whole thing is just so unreal and unbelievable to me.  Our daughter was the light of his life and now she will never get to really know him and that is very hard for me.  I loved watching them together.   I am also completely lost on how to go on without Chris but our baby girl needs me now more than ever and she is my sole reason for being now.  Without her I don't know where I would be or if I even would "be".  I cry everyday and at first I felt bad about crying in front of her but I want her to know it's ok to cry and express her emotions because I know one day she will be confused and frustrated that she doesn't have her daddy.  People keep telling me I am strong and doing so well but I tell them I am not strong and if I exude any strength it comes from my love for Ellis & Chris and because I ask Chris to give me his strength when I need it.  I hope you have more good days than bad and know that you are not alone.

Take Care

Permalink Reply by gillian bowker on August 29, 2012 at 6:42am

thankyou for your message i am sorry to hear about your partner i feel the same way if it wasn,t for my daughter jessica i don,t know what i would do . I spoke to a counciler to see if i was being strange but they said i am greiving healthy (even though it doesn,t feel that way but there is a 7 months waiting list to get an appointment so i decided to come on here . I have s.ome ok days now but i think of him every moment of every day . I hope your days will get easier in time and you can take comfort knowing he will be watching you and your little girl make sure you take care of yourself aswell as your daughter .