Hello everyone. I am new to the group, haven't really gotten a chance to post anything. Trying to mourn over the sudden loss of my father. He left us on January 6th. I have had such a hard time because my family has always been very divided. My dad held our side of the family together as much as he could... My brother and sister and I never really had much of a relationship and it's only gotten worse since he's passed. I lived with my mom my whole life, and now I live with my boyfriend and my daughter.. I talk to her about once a week, tried talking to her tonight but she was clearly preoccupied. It's just been one of those days that we all know too well. We were with a friend earlier today who couldn't seem to get a hold of his father, and obviously worried he went to his house to check on him, banged on the door and had to find his way into his house, which seems all too much like the day my father was found. It brought all those feelings crashing down on me harder than I thought it would. Well, regardless.. just feeling pretty lonely today.