It's been just over 4 years and I'm finally starting to feel more myself,more focused.I was 46 when my brother,50 died.My boyfriend of 18 years and I found him on his kitchen floor.He was an alcoholic but still,no health problems.The Medical Examiner said his alcohol content was high but not deathly high for a long term drinker.He had his Zanax and Ultram show up in his blood but I was told both of those were very low doses.As hard as it was finding him like that and dealing with his loss,nothing prepared me for the events that let up to him ending up on the floor and after.Its a long story that I almost hate to write again because soo many words and I can't type fast enough.I'm very heppy to have found this site.I have been on a grief site shortly after his death but its all kinda a blur now.And although I'm come to terms with his death,I'm needing to reach out for others input on the events surrounding it so that somehow,someway,I can try to really put it behind me.Somedays,I feel I have,others I'm soo angry.I will post that part of my story in a bit and again,I"m happy to be here and I hope that I can be of help to others,also.I've never loss anyone I was so close to until my brother and it has changed me,,forever.

Thanks for listening,

Debby S

I will post a pic of him as soon as I know how.I also have a couple video's of him playin guitar n singing, That was his passion.