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Permalink Reply by Kandi Broussard on March 16, 2012 at 2:45pm

you could still be in the shock phase.  Trust me when I tell you that after the shock wears off the next phase is more difficult to cope with.  Please do not make any life changing decisions because you are probably not using your best judgment.  I stayed in the shock phase for almost 9 months

Permalink Reply by Kandi Broussard on March 16, 2012 at 2:46pm

I am so sorry that you are experiencing this pain.  It is the WORST thing I can think of

Permalink Reply by Bonnie Elizabeth Fleming on March 17, 2012 at 1:14am

Oh Amie,

Poor thing!!!!!!!!!!!  I wish I could hug you, I know only part of what you're going through--my older sister died suddenly on December 26, 2011, so our relatives died really close to the same time and I still feel very lost myself...my sister was kind of like a Mom to me, so there is that aspect of things too.  My sister died of asthma complications, though, and not because she was murdered.  Death is hard for any of us to deal with, but I think that murder must be particularly hard to accept or process.  I also wonder if my sister KNEW to the core of her bones that I loved her.  I think that might be something we all wonder a bit....if we managed to express our love enough so that our love one really "got" it.  Maybe it will comfort you to know some of us feel the same sorts of things?  One thing I can say is that it has helped me immensely to go see a counselor.....sometimes you need someone to help you process all the inner emotional backlash of things.  We can help you online here...but sometimes there's just no substitute for having that understanding ear right there with you.  I'll be praying for you, for peace and comfort and...for increasing times when you feel less numb and lost!

Hugs

Beth

Permalink Reply by Kevin on September 24, 2012 at 9:24pm

Hello Amie - I feel for you.  I will say a prayer for you.  I have a similiar story.  Here is mine:

My Father murdered my Mother in March of 2012. He was suicidal. He never mentioned hurting my Mom. He was on a lot of anti-psychotic drugs and depression medicine. His act has changed my life and my two sisters. I used to be really happy, but now find it hard to smile or be joyful. I want to know how to get unstuck. My two sisters seem to be dealing with this better than me. I am on leave from work and sleep most days away. I am currently seeing a psychiatrist and counselor. I am consumed with grief, pain and depression. My Father tried to commit suicide by cop- but they tased him. He has been in a mental hospital for 180 days. I am lost. 

 

I also can not face reality and don't feel like I'm really facing the lost of my Mom.   I also day dream and pretend it hasn't happened. My sisters have faced it and are doing okay-not great, but okay.  I suffer every day.  I guess we both have to strive to get our lives back.  Our Moms would want that.  Have a great night!

Permalink Reply by Laura on October 1, 2012 at 1:15pm

Im so sorry for  your pain what a awful experience for you to go thru. And Im sure your Mom knows how much you loved her. I know your pain all too well. Hugs to you.