My friend was my life. I loved her. She ended her life because she was in so much pain. Her name as Ashlie but I called her AB. AB died at age 15. Not one day goes by that I dont think of her. When will this get easier? I still cry and when I do, it does not last long but I feel shame that I still cry but her family does not. AB was my closest friend ever. I think of her alot of the day. She died in January of 2008. Her friends prayed that she would come back but now we all know that wont happen. All we can do now is hope she is in peace and happy. I need someone who understands how this feels. She died at age 15. I was 15 as well and that was the worst day of my life. What can I do now?