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Permalink Reply by Terri Kuta on June 1, 2011 at 3:42pm

Deborah:

 

Everyone tells me the second year is the hardest mine has only been 6 months but I dread the second year so much, they say your mind plays tricks and even though you know their gone you still have hope they may come back, like they are away at college or moved out of state, then the second year hits and you know that is never going to happen.  I will keep you in my prayers for some peace

Permalink Reply by Deborah Dodds on June 1, 2011 at 6:38pm

Thank you Terri for keeping me in your prayers.  I've been crying and depressed all day.  I thought it was going to get better but I keep having flashbacks of the days after his death and it brings it all back to me once again.  I was in shock then because the murder was so sudden an unexpected.  Now I am feeling it all.  I want this feeling to go away.  I feel it is time to move on with my life and I feel stuck (tears).

Permalink Reply by Sean Casey on June 1, 2011 at 10:20pm

I don't know if there's anything that suddenly makes things magically better for any of us.  I've heard that the one-year mark just means you've made it through all the stuff that'll come up once, and at least know what to expect with/from it now.  It also sounds like it was a pretty intense kind of experience, and I know with the ones like that I've had so far I tend to be more stirred up for the next few days.  I hope that as things settle out from it, you're able to at least find some more peace.  *hugs*

Permalink Reply by Deborah Dodds on June 1, 2011 at 11:32pm

Thanks for the hugs Sean.  I really needed a hug.  It was an intense experience yesterday but it was also very beautiful.  I'm  just taking things one day at a time.  That is the best that I can do.  Hugs back to you my friend...Deb