i have been so stressed out lately,i miss caden so much,i swear each door hurts more then the other.the cemetary sent s letter to me that i have to remove the bench i had made for my son and that i also have to take the angels off..i think it is so unfair and theres gotta be a way to stop it...my son is under a tree,there is no grass around and only 1 grave on the other side of him,theses things are not hurting anyone..my baby that i just had cristian,i was pregnant with him when this happended is starting to reallly look like his brother,they could have passed as twins,and sometimes it hurts to look at him and i see caden all over again and it kills me..ive lost weight and have been not been able to eat good..i am so tired,i want this nightmare to be over,to wake up and my caden is there so i can kiss him,hug and tell him how much i love him..sometimes i feel like im really gonna lose it