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Comment by Lorie Dunn on December 26, 2011 at 8:19am

Today is the 2nd anniversary of my son, Hunter's death. He was 16 when he died of a prescription drug overdose. I miss him so much! It is hard to believe that it has been 2 years. I see kids he went to school with..grown up and it sometimes makes me angry. Other times just sad. I see some of the people that did drugs with him and wonder why God gave them a second chance but not my child. Some days morbid terrible thoughts consume me. Other days, I can function as normally as this new life allows. As I go through my day today, I plan on being productive and have good memories of my son. To not lay on the couch and cry all day as I did last year. Just thinking if I write my plan down..maybe I will stick with it. I know on this site, people here understand about babysteps and how hard normal everyday tasks feel like a burden. Like going to work or taking a shower or talking to people can be as hard as running a marathon some days. I hope that everyone that knew Hunter will have great memories of him today. I love you Bubby!

Comment by Adrianne Edgerly on December 26, 2011 at 12:55am

I am so glad this is over.  However, I was at the grocery store on Christmas Eve and they were taking down the Christmas decorations and putting up Valentine's day which is my son's birthday.  I can't get a break.  I miss him so much.

Comment by Grace on December 25, 2011 at 11:33pm

that is good news Robin.... celebrate that you made it through the day and that there was even some joy....  I remember feeling a little guilty when my first husband died.... I cried for months and then on days  such as the one you had today..... I wondered if I should feel guilty to have some happiness after such misery....

But enjoy the day Robin.... this is what keeps us going it one day at a time..... this is where we need to hang on to the belief that "It does get better"  The Empty Chair will always be there but maybe the pain gets easier to cope with... and the happy memories we have sustain us.... and it honors the best part of Zach... Or in my case Niles (My Son) or Steve (my first husband) the life and the LOVE that has left such an impact on our lives.     PEACE

Comment by Robin Jone on December 25, 2011 at 10:29pm

I made it through today, and I have to say I enjoyed being with my family. Spent the day with my husband, daughters, son-in-law and two granddaughters and watched them play and laugh. At dinner when we say our prayers and made a toast, I thanked God for my father and toasted Zach. I don't know if I should have done that though, after I did that everyone seemed sad. I felt like we all had a good day, and I almost felt guilty that I was able to get through it. Does anyone else ever feel like that? Yesterday and last night I cried so many tears, and I asked God and Zach to please give me some kind of a sign that he was okay. I didn't feel like I got that, but maybe my day today being easier was kind of a sign. Zach telling me he doesn't want me to always be so sad. I think that he would be sad if he knew that I spent my Christmas day not enjoying the family that is still here. I thank you God for giving me a reprieve today from my overwhelming grief, and i pray that Zach had the best Christmas with all our loved ones who are in heaven and that someday we will be together again. I love you and miss you so much Zach. Peace to all . Robin

Comment by Lorraine on December 25, 2011 at 9:21pm

Dick, I know what you mean about things getting harder.  I do feel that after 3 years I am finding little moments of peace.  But it is harder in that it has been longer since we have seen our children.  I held it together much better today than in the past two Christmases; the first year I could not get out of bed, and the second I got up but fell apart much of the day.  Tonight I am really struggling; such anxiety over Silas being gone.  It hits like a ton of bricks that he is really gone feels so surreal and yet too real at the same time.  How can that be?  I want my Sy guy back :-(  Finding the strength some days is just so exhausting... sending love to all of my friends here, and wishing you moments of peace

Comment by jennifer on December 25, 2011 at 11:36am

To me it doesnt even seem like christmas without my baby here..i went to the cemetary yesterday and just cried and cried..life is not fair,my baby was only too when he was taken from this world in a cruel way..he had his whole life ahead of him,instead of celebrating christmas and being happy with him i feel soo empty..i cursed that bastard to hell and back yesterday..my oldest son asked me the other nite to not bring up caden or how much i miss him because it is hard enough on him..how do u go on and be happy????

Comment by Dick on December 25, 2011 at 10:07am

Peace.

Comment by Grace on December 25, 2011 at 7:31am

Dick,  We all know how you feel...like I have said earlier... there is always going to be that empty chair at these holidays.  And I have caught glimpses of photos or memories that make everything so raw again...  photos of the past that beat us over the head and say sorry that isn't going to happen again because he is gone.

You will find though that even though you fell apart when you see that your Niece has Honored the memory of Danny.... You will feel positive that She and maybe the rest of the world has made a special place in thier heart to remember him.  He was here and his life made an impact on so many.    PEACE.

Comment by Dick on December 25, 2011 at 12:12am

I lost it this evening at the family Christmas eve party. Just too many people and too much action; my son is no longer part of it.

My niece is putting together a family album over the years; some pictures of my son in a much happier place and time were part of it. She also acknowledged his passing in the album. I can hardly say his name now.

I had a hard time at Christmas mass this evening. I think it is getting harder not easier.

Comment by Karen R. on December 24, 2011 at 3:10pm

Greetings Mary Elizabeth, I am so sorry that you are a part of this "club". We all unfortunately know your pain all too well. I am so sorry that yet another has had to bury thier child. In a perfect world, we would never know this pain. I am still suffering from the loss of my 21yr old son who you see pictured. I just made the 2 yr mark and my pain and sadness had not diminished one bit. This is something that will never be "ok" for me. I f you scroll through the many postings, you will a poem that I posted about suffering the loss of a child....i didn't write it but it sure feels like it. Just remember that no one will judge your feelings and your thoughts.

Sending you a big hug, Karen R.

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