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Comment by Rj on December 12, 2015 at 6:41pm

I have been over eating, i have put on so much weight since february which makes me feel worse, if thats possible. My back is hurting, i have been waking up with awful acid reflux, feels like i am having heart attack. My hair has gotten so thin, everything is so outta sorts. My mental state is equally as messed up and off balance.

Comment by Connie K on December 11, 2015 at 10:36am

My dear Jennifer. I am so very sorry for your tragic loss. I lost my son suddenly in a car accident on Dec.1 2012. He was 17. We understand how devastated you are and are here anytime you need to talk or scream. I will send you prayers to and hope for the strength to get through this first holiday without your son. Hugs to you.

Jill also to you. You will make it through year 2 the same way you did this year. Day by day, minute by minute. And with the support of people who care about you. (((  )))

Teresa, I am still so admire you for putting together this annual tournament. It is such a beautiful way to keep Michael's memory alive and for others to keep benefiting from his life. But I know it is bittersweet.

I had a dream 2 nights ago where Daniel was about 12, once again it seemed that he was walking away I called to him . He came back and we had a nice long hug and I got to say I love you. It is that moment that I feel he came for a visit when he knew I needed it most. And altho I cherish seeing him and having that, waking up is the worst. I have been crying ever since....even after 3 years, it doesn't stop the intense need to see him again. Every skinny teenage boy I see, I do a double take! So all I want for Christmas is to believe that he's swinging on a star and existing in beauty and light. The pain is so hard this time of year and I hope for all of my friends here, some peace, love from your friends and family and to continue to love others for our children and through their spirit.I don't know what I would do if I didn't have this group to talk to. I love and appreciate you all.

Comment by Teresa D. on December 11, 2015 at 7:00am

Jennifer, we are willing to wrap our arms around you. I didn't lose my son in the same manner but just the same he is gone.  That pain I know.  I am here to support you.   

Jill you can only take one day at a time and deal with each one as it comes. 

Tomorrow is Michael's hockey tournament.  I'm full of tears right now.  Asking my self where did it all go? How am I left with nothing but a tournament. Tomorrow I will see his name everywhere and him nowhere.   Tomorrow will be my Christmas. It's all I got.

Comment by Rj on December 11, 2015 at 2:42am

Dear jennifer...i lost my 27 year old son larry on 2/1/15, also by suicide. He was my only child. It shattered my world, many lives have been forever changed. You are safe here, as all of us here understand your suffering, your broken heart. I am so sorry for the loss of your dear son. Love, ronda.

Comment by Jennifer Neumann on December 11, 2015 at 2:16am

My son died as a result of suicide a month ago.  He was 19.  He was one of the kindest, gentlest souls and he always seemed happy.  His death has affected so many people.  I am having a difficult time dealing with it and am just here looking for support from others that have been in the same situation.  Thank you!

Comment by Jill E on December 10, 2015 at 7:25pm

I needed to be here with you all right now. To be with the ones who understand, who understand the grief. Who are my strength. Who have the shoulder for me to cry on. I have made it through the first year...I think...How do I make it through year two? Christmas like most of us can hardly wait for it to be over. Everywhere I look it is everywhere. I remember the gifts I bought for Josh last year-he never got to open them. It brings no joy. I am doing my best for my youngest son. Love to all

Comment by Connie K on December 10, 2015 at 5:20pm

so glad when it's over!

Comment by Lynn Williams on December 10, 2015 at 2:54pm

Some days are so much harder than others. It has been an unusually warm and sunny late fall here in Vermont,which helps my sanity. Holidays can never be the same for us all again. Instead of forcing myself to go through the motions, I am just passing on all the gift giving and getting a tree. I will be happy when its all done.   

Comment by Ammy on December 8, 2015 at 2:56pm

A loving hello to all.  I haven't been here to the site for quite awhile.  I've had some health issues that needed attending to and hopefully the worse is over.  Funny thing was that I really wasn't concerned.  I guess after what we've lost nothing can bring us down further than we've already been brought.
I want you to know that you are always in my thoughts and prayers even when I'm not here.  I know with the holidays we all seem to struggle a little harder and this year (#5) is no different for me.  Most days are bearable but I have to avoid all the commotion.

Connie, I see that you finished your song and posted it on YouTube.  It's beautiful and I thank you for sharing it with us.  I hope it has brought you a good feeling and I know Daniel is so proud of you.

May you all have the strength you need to get through the next month.  I hope you take care of yourselves and focus on one day...Today.  Try not to think ahead or back.  We just need to get through today.  Love & blessings to each of you.

Comment by Teresa D. on December 8, 2015 at 6:30am

Jill I feel for you.  Your words are words I have said many times myself. 

I'm having a hockey tournament in Michael's name this weekend.  This year we added a hockey essay contest with a hockey scholarship as the prize.  I should feel good but yet I feel so sad. 

Every night I go outside and look at our tree. to me it represents our kids.

That's all I got. This is Christmas right now, the tree outside and the tournament. It's slowly taking new shape.  Michael loved Christmas so I think he would be proud of his holiday tournament. 

Dolly I think because we grieve our children so bad senseless killings make absolutely no sense to us and like you it angers me. 

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