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Comment by Shelley on March 21, 2013 at 7:46pm

Tomorrow will be 2 months since my son died, he was 23. I never knew I could miss someone so much. And it seems like people...co-workers,friends and even relatives don't even mention him any more. My heart hurts so much. All I want is him back. It seemes like no one understands that this is the worst pain in the world. It's not the way the world is soppose to work. I was soppose to go before him and I so wish I could trade places with him. His memory consumes my every thought, I miss him so much.

Comment by Grace on March 21, 2013 at 5:06pm

Hi... it was May 2009 when I lost Niles.... April 17 he would be 18.... instead he will always be 14.  It does get softer but you will always flash back to the life with him then think about life now....how do we survive?

Just breathe in then out... repeat..... and cry.... I still cry....

As a mother we give birth and this Life has come from our body...now now our heart will always have a hole that will never be filled .... but maybe a scab....  PEACE

Comment by Grace on March 21, 2013 at 5:06pm

Hi... it was May 2009 when I lost Niles.... April 17 he would be 18.... instead he will always be 14.  It does get softer but you will always flash back to the life with him then think about life now....how do we survive?

Just breathe in then out... repeat..... and cry.... I still cry....

As a mother we give birth and this Life has come from our body...now now our heart will always have a hole that will never be filled .... but maybe a scab....  PEACE

Comment by Karen R. on March 21, 2013 at 11:41am

Hi Ammy, yes, I think of my son all day everyday, sometimes when I feel like my breakdown is coming, I convince myself that I hear my son saying" come on MOM, I feel really sad seeing you like this" and I imagine that he is rubbing my back or hugging me. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. My son not being here is still unimaginable to me.

Comment by Ammy on March 21, 2013 at 11:25am

Michelle, forgive me for saying this, but you are like a baby in your grief. You have just been born to it.  Five weeks is just as if it's happened right now.  It's too fresh.  Just keep doing as you need to grieve, but try to take care of yourself as best you can.  It's a long journey, but it won't always be as it is.  I am so sorry.   ♥

 (Mom of Chas 7/14/2010)

Comment by Michele Blevins on March 21, 2013 at 10:25am

i think of my son non stop. it's so hard to move on. it's been almost 5 weeks. I haven't been back to work. i feel like i don't want to go on. everyone else has moved on with their life. I talked to a pastor Monday that did not help me. i just lay on couch all day and cry wishing things were different n wake up from this nightmare.

Comment by Ammy on March 21, 2013 at 9:28am

Hi again and sending hugs & blessings to all.

Adrianne, do you remember her name?  

Do all of you think of your child/children throughout the day?  Do you think we will always do this every day?

Sometimes in my selfish way, I wish I could forget, as one thought will eventually lead to a negative thought and I have to tell myself to think of something else or to do something to get my mind off of it.  

Sorry, I just have had so many random thoughts lately.

(Mom of Chas 7/14/2010)

Comment by Adrianne Edgerly on March 21, 2013 at 2:34am

Ammy
I have thought of her also. Dick doesn't write much anymore either. I think of all of you.

Comment by Karen R. on March 20, 2013 at 8:36pm

Hugs to all as well.

Comment by Ammy on March 20, 2013 at 3:32pm

I've just been looking through old posts.  I thought of someone yesterday that was here in our group and, of course, I can't remember her name.  I can't get her out of my mind and don't want to post too much info, but one thing that would be known to her is that her son had asked for a cigarette.  If you are still here, but not posting, would you let me know.

I realized that there are so many that have come and gone as I looked back at the posts.  I hope all are coping.  This group says 235 members, but it seems as only a small number have remained since I came here.

Just thinking some of my off the wall thoughts today.  

Hugs to all!  ❤

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