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Comment by Karen R. on October 16, 2013 at 9:09pm

typo; should say.....they fail to realize, not feel to realize

Comment by Karen R. on October 16, 2013 at 9:08pm

Hello to all, wasn't sure if I would be able to get on today. Today marks the 4th anniversary of my son's passing :(, obviously a day that I will always hate. Most of my friends and family either forgot or avoided me today, some, I'm sure were thinking that their acknowledgement of this day would only upset me but they feel to realize that their remembering, is actually a good thing for me, especially since I'm always agonizing over the mere thought that everyone will forget him as if he never had a life.  They don't understand that he is not just a "memory' to me, he's my son, he will ALWAYS be my son and I will always be his mom and I want him back, not later.....right now!! He had a life and should still be here enjoying it, he was only 21 yrs old for goodness sake and I'm still very angry, angry at those who are responsible and myself for discontinuing his life support. I'm always begging for his forgiveness, my guilt is still heavy. I try to convince myself I did the "RIGHT" thing for him but it never works, I just have feelings of profound regret. Rationally, it probably was the best but in my heart I feel like contributed to his demise, in my book, this is the worse possible feeling that anyone could ever feel, it's quite tormenting at times. Somehow, I make it to the next day. 

Dawn, Hailo, is absolutely adorable, what a gift!

Comment by Ammy on October 16, 2013 at 7:06pm

Dawn, your little Hailo is precious.  I hope she will bring you much joy.  

I know my 2 youngest grandchildren have helped me immensely.  Just something about babies.  

Love, peace, and comfort to all.

Comment by Lynn Williams on October 16, 2013 at 5:08pm

Dolly your grandchild is beautiful  much love

Comment by Vasanthi S on October 16, 2013 at 9:44am

awwwww  Dawn O what a lovely lovely pic.. god bless you.

Comment by Vasanthi S on October 16, 2013 at 8:18am

Teresa thank you for your kind words and all here too.. xoxoxox

Comment by Vasanthi S on October 16, 2013 at 8:16am

Dolly,

Just be as you are.. no one on earth need be given the power to make you feel bad about anything. It is all so recent and one cant be expected to go on as if nothing happened. You are just lovely as you are and its not some pep talk, i feel your sincerity and honesty and I'm having some pretty bad days too. For me it is almost 2 years this Dec and though time cant give me my son back , the shock of it is wearing off and I try to do things like get quiet time, even when I am all alone and try to still the mind by some uplifting reading.. sometimes i just watch tv mindlessly. You know that everyone around do try their best in their own way but our sorrow is such a weird peculiar one as we are sorrowing for what is against the natural order..I never used to have fear earlier, now i seem to fear everything, right from getting into the car and driving.. for a good 10 minutes, I feel my heart beating and i sweat... Craig has asked me to breathe deeply when that happens and the breathing does help.. so I am trying to help myself get better.next week I have to leave and get there... changes are the way life has been and will be. I am putting away things in the house and yesterday went through all of his pics as i need to carry many with me.. it is brutal for us to go through this.. i wish i could just hold you. I know how much you miss caring fro Brandon.. it is like one role is  snatched away and in its place is a huge void.. Again the recency is what is hurting you,I am not saying that we will ever forget but I badly want to get to a place where love does the talking and not the damn pain.

Comment by Teresa D. on October 16, 2013 at 7:02am

Ammy don't ever think no one missed you, because I notice when others have done silent.  I just assume others are doing what they need to do for themselves to get through this. 

Anne anything anyone has to say that is positive is medicine for me.  I take what others try and say and see if it will work for me.

Now I even pass some of it along to my cousin Jessy.  I could not have handled Jessy if it wasn't for the support I got here. 

Vasanthi, keep your encouraging quotes coming.

Lynn I wish I had a friend like yours.

And for those of you who are further down the road please don't stop sharing because for me your words prepare me for what's to come and it let's me know I'm ok when I have melt downs like the other day.

Comment by Vasanthi S on October 16, 2013 at 2:28am

I wonder too Adrianne.. its so out of character for them to maintain silence-- !

Comment by Adrianne Edgerly on October 16, 2013 at 1:43am

Ammy I have missed you. Karen also. I wonder also if anyone notices when I'm gone. I think we really need the support we find here. It doesn't matter as much the content of the post. More the acknowledgment that we understand the grief we experience is something we aren't alone with. Sad that we need others that have lost a child to help us with some peace. You are all in my heart. I hurt for us all. I just want to hear from my son. I really don't know why they can't speak to us somehow.

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