Comment

Comment by Teresa D. on October 19, 2013 at 8:30am

Grace nice to hear from you.  I'm in the same position with my mom, so I know how you feel.  Even though my mom has not been able to be there for me emotionally I am very lucky to have the great friends and family that I have.  They have all tried their best to be supportive and to let me know they are there.  They may not always say the right things but I know their intentions are good. 

Yesterday I spent the day with one of my friends who is more like a sister.  Helped her clean out her mom's things.  She has been holding on to them since she passed, which was 5 years ago.  I've known her and her family since 1976 so it was nice to walk down memory lane with her as we did this. 

This was good for us and I'm glad I did it with her.  We were able to do it with fond memories and lots of laughs instead of complete sadness.  It was nice to see her remember her mom with happiness instead of the usual tears.  I live for the day I can speak of Michael with happiness and not tears.  Just not there yet.

Try to have a peaceful weekend and know someone (me) is thinking of you and your children.  HUGS and Love to all.  Even those peeking in.

Comment by Ammy on October 18, 2013 at 7:35pm

Grace, it was good to see you here.  I actually thought of you the other day.  I had posted something about moms that take care of their children and it made me think of you also.  I pray you are able to find some moments of peace & comfort.

This life is just overwhelming at times, but, sadly, it's now our life.

Looks like a quiet day here on the wall.  Hope that is a good sign.

Thinking of you all and sending hugs.

Comment by Grace on October 18, 2013 at 8:58am

Wow...it has been a while since I have commented... Some days my box is so full of everyone one here... I just can not bear to read them all... so sad to know we have all lost a child.  Niles died in May of 2009... and I am still reading some of the post and thinking about those on here.... the other day I was driving and hear Elton John sing

"Daniel" and thought about Dick...(Who has not been on here in a while either).   In my dreams I begin to see my Niles as if he were still here... doing everyday things to only wake to again know that his cremains are in the drawer next to me.  I continue to think about my estranged relationship with my mother but can not put myself in the line of the toxic fire with them anymore... yet I find myself worried and with Pity that she has such a lonely and bitter end of life situation.  Anyway... I can not say that I have read every comment on here...there have been just too many... and we all know the pain of each of us..... PEACE

Comment by Teresa D. on October 18, 2013 at 5:46am

I try to tell Zenia the same thing Dawn.  There were things between me and Michael that were ours.  Michael never hung up the phone or walked away from me without saying "I love you".  He became a big strong man but yet when he came for the night he would let me (to an extent) treat him like he was my little boy. 

My daughter started to notice something I've been doing that I didn't notice.  I keep treating boys in the stores and on the street to things.  I buy them candy, water ice or simply give them money.  I don't know these kids and they didn't ask me for anything.  I didn't realize I was doing it until she pointed it out.

Comment by Karen R. on October 17, 2013 at 9:36pm

Hey Connie K. thanks so much, I'll take as many as I can get. Sending my hugs to all, I truly wish I could hug each and everyone one of you in person, I wish I could give everyone their child back and take all their pain away. In a perfect world, no one would ever know this pain.

Comment by Karen R. on October 17, 2013 at 9:32pm

Hello to all, Teresa D. I have had similar experiences with my other children. I was always a worrier but now, even more so, I hate that I do that to them as well, hopefully they learn to not hold it against us.

 

Comment by Connie K on October 17, 2013 at 12:15pm

Karen - sending you prayers today.

Comment by Lynn Williams on October 17, 2013 at 9:26am

When Do you begin to start letting the presence of your living children in your mind all I do is think about Kyra who is physically gone.  My other kids live so far away,  I will see them at Christmas but I need to be near them.  Before Kyra died all of them were in my mind, but now I just want Kyra here.  Is this normal. Help  

Comment by Teresa D. on October 17, 2013 at 5:56am

As moms we take the responsibility even if it is not really ours.  I know I feel guilty because Michael laid on that floor all alone.  He needed me and I wasn't there.

Dolly your description of Brandon's facial expressions is beautiful. 

Dawn....precious just simply precious. 

Michelle, we care about you right back. 

My daughter is 25 and when she didn't return to the house when I expected her to I became really upset.  When she came home I just starting yelling at her like a kid who didn't make it home by curfew.  In my yelling I blurted, "I already have one dead kid" I didn't mean too, didn't even realize I was saying it until I said it.  The next day she must have called me every 5 minutes to tell me where she was.  I shouldn't have done that to her.

 

Comment by Adrianne Edgerly on October 17, 2013 at 2:12am

I know Karen. I think of her often.

• ‹ Previous
• 1
• …
• 422
• 423
• 424
• 425
• 426
• …
• 757
• Next ›
• Page