Comment

Comment by Lynn Williams on February 12, 2014 at 1:44pm

I just had a big cry. My god when those waves hit it is hard to cope.  I was on facebook and saw an event invite on a friends page for Kyra's memorial service in Montana last August.  I then went out to get the mail and my daughter Genna sent me a package. It had some clothes she doesn't need and things of Kyra's. There were a pair of clogs that were originally mine that I had giving Kyra when she had little money.  They are falling apart because she wore them everyday  but I can't throw them out. I craddled them in my arms and just sobbed. She would probably still be wearing them if she was still alive.should be thrown out  I don't what I would do if I didn't have you all here to listen.  Connie and everyone hugs how is everyone doing today.  

Comment by Connie K on February 12, 2014 at 12:12pm

Thanks to everyone here for your support. Sometimes there is just no where else to go and vent. Altho I know that people all around me are mourning (we never know other's stories) I feel so alone in my grief. There are no words that most folks can understand -or want to - and I get it. I never would let myself imagine the worst while Daniel was alive.

But sometimes I would like it if I could just let it all out when the question comes "So how are you doing?"

Hugs to everyone. You are all always in my heart. I pray that we all can find some peace and live in a way that makes our angels proud.

Comment by Vasanthi S on February 12, 2014 at 11:10am

Thinking of all of you and praying for peace and acceptance however hard it may be ... Dolly did you try the neem oil for the skin?it is very effective so try and get it if you can. love to all.. Connie I know exactly how you feel and often wish I could just be with you all and share everything . Visited old friends in Maryland and it felt nice butkept my son's big picture in the bedroom where I slept so that I wouldn't feel too lost..it helped.. i would talk to him at night and somehow wish I could do it loudly and with everyone present. I find myself furtive while talking and hate that and no one has ever said don't talk to him but I also know that if I do it with anyone else in the room it will probably stun them!

Comment by Teresa D. on February 11, 2014 at 9:07am

I'm with you Connie.  I'm feeling like I'm hitting bottom again.  The closer Michael's birthday gets the more emotional I'm becoming.  Even though Michael's last words were, "don't you ever get it wrong your number one and you'll always be number one" I'm feeling like a failure of a mom.  I wasn't there when he needed me the most.  He laid there all weekend alone waiting to be discovered.  My baby laid on that floor all alone and died alone.  I'd give anything to change places with him. How do I continue to work with families and children and I couldn't protect my own? 

Comment by Michelle H on February 10, 2014 at 6:36pm

Just want everyone to know I'm thinking of you and praying for your comfort.

Comment by Connie K on February 10, 2014 at 5:43pm

Dolly - first of all so sorry you are still suffering with that ringing! And yes they might lose their leaves while still indoors. I'm not exactly sure of the cycle especially in that climate , but mine are just now getting some leaves back but they are outside all year (sorry :) You can check online for your climate zone. They like part shade. Hope their flowers cheer you up! Hugs to everyone.

Comment by Lynn Williams on February 10, 2014 at 3:35pm

Thank you for the beautiful poem Teresa. Connie I am sorry you have been crying and feeling like there was something you could have done differently. You are a loving and devoted mother and Daniel knows that. I wish we were their guardian angels at the time of their accident and were able to change the outcome, but it was out of our power. We are powerless and that is so hard to accept. We want our babies back. I have been feeling angry today that she was taken from me and there was nothing I could do. Why does the universe do this to loving parents, I can't fathom the reason. Davi, I too have a hard time with my mom. She wants to talk so superficially about the weather and what I have been up to. I just yes her to death and know she won't call me again for a couple of weeks. Love and hugs to all. Survival is all I can muster at the moment.

Comment by Vasanthi S on February 10, 2014 at 3:20pm

Teresa, what a lovely poem..it says it all..hugs to everyone.. had been away or a week.

Comment by anne on February 10, 2014 at 2:31pm

Hugs to all of you today!

Comment by Davi Burford on February 10, 2014 at 1:13pm

Oh Connie sending hugs your way cause we both need them right now 

• ‹ Previous
• 1
• …
• 340
• 341
• 342
• 343
• 344
• …
• 757
• Next ›
• Page