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Comment by Connie K on July 26, 2014 at 11:24pm

Melissa - we know your pain - sometimes it feels too much to handle but you can overcome this wave. I know your daughter is still with you in spirit and you just have to hold on to that - I don't think it's a lie. You'll see her again some day. Seems like your Dad was there with you today! Please message me anytime if you want to vent more.

Hugs to everyone

Comment by Melissa T on July 26, 2014 at 10:09pm

Don't worry, as much as I would like  to leave this world, I really haven't a way to accomplish it with out leaving a mess, and I fear if I took my life I'd be assuring myself a place in hell, and Kaitlin's not to be found there, nor are my parents. Just at the end of my rope and at a loss of what to do anymore.  My wi-fi is about to die and it's cord has been tampered with so it won't charge. Got to take it apart and try to fix it, thank God I followed my dad on weekends and learned some basics about repairing wiring, although he was an attorney not an electrician, I miss him too! Thanks for letting me vent.

Comment by Melissa T on July 26, 2014 at 9:27pm

6 years of despair is to  much for me, I'm just tired of being in a place where everyone feels out of sight out of mind, which includes pictures of my daughter that no longer grace there fridges with the rest of the cousins. I can't expect them to understand but it's like they pretend she was never here, and she was such a caring, loving teenager that would do anything for them! I have no one that has a clue that I can talk with, and in a way I'm grateful, cuz that would mean they to, like all of us have lost a child. I just want to go away, I've managed to make a mess of my life, and I've not had a moments happiness since Kaitlin died, and I'm tired of pretending, it's all just a lie.

Comment by Lynn Williams on July 26, 2014 at 9:05pm

Melissa please call someone to help you through the despair. Kaitlin loves you and is with you. She would never want you to do anything to harm yourself.

Comment by Jesse's Mom on July 26, 2014 at 8:58pm

Hey Melissa, do you have anyone you can talk to?

Comment by Melissa T on July 26, 2014 at 8:46pm

Can't exist in this world anymore. Time to leave it in hopes of finding Kaitlin, wish me luck!! Hope this works.

Comment by Connie K on July 26, 2014 at 5:59pm

LR it certainly is overwhelming. Last year I attended my niece's wedding about5 months after my son passed and when they had the mother/son dance I couldn't hold it back any longer. Of course I was happy to be with my niece and family but it is so painful to watch what we and our children willl never have

Comment by Jesse's Mom on July 26, 2014 at 4:26pm

Yesterday I came home and there was an invite for a dear friend's daughter's wedding...which triggered another meltdown...I am undecided if I will go...I may just send some money...

...so many reminders of what my life has become...it is overwhelming at times...

 

Comment by Teresa D. on July 26, 2014 at 9:47am

Adrienne & Lynn...HUGS!

Linda, LR, Kim & Jane Lynn is right we will get through this together.

It's okay to cry, we need to.

It's okay right now not to be okay.

HUGS to all!

Comment by Connie K on July 25, 2014 at 10:06pm

Sending you love and prayers Adrienne as you approach this horrific anniversary. I understand what you mean about guilt causing so much pain Linda. I know that it torments me as well. And I also know in my heart that my son forgives me for my shortcomings and knows how much I love him and tried to do the best for him. These are the really hard lessons we learn from this tragedy. How not to do what we regret - again. I think as parents, we are always quick to correct our children - that's natural. But now we look back and wish we could have done it all over just a little kinder with all the love we feel for them all the time. It's tough because I just want him back so much so I can show him I've changed and have learned. I can only have faith that he knows it.

Lynn - always thinking of you and Kyra. These "anniversaries" come up so fast and yet everyday seems like an eternity.

I am sorry for everyone's pain and hope you can all find some peace tonight. Thank you all for being here and sharing. Hang in there Kim. Just keep hanging in there please. (((  )))

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