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Comment by Michelle H on September 1, 2014 at 9:34pm

Anne, so very sorry for your loss.

Comment by Bern on September 1, 2014 at 9:00pm

I don't like my life without my son. It really hurts and has made me bitter and miserable.

Comment by anne on September 1, 2014 at 8:44pm

Today the woman who helped pull me from the darkness has passed away. I will miss her so much. I am so grateful to have had her in my life, and for all she did to help me save myself. Today I will weep as my heart has taken a big blow, but tomorrow I will pick myself up, and remember all she taught me. I love her very much, and I will carry her  in my heart. See you later my dear friend. I will never forget you.

Comment by Jesse's Mom on September 1, 2014 at 5:26pm

Missing you Jesse today...

Comment by anne on September 1, 2014 at 4:56pm

I'm glad I could help! Thing is you really don't move forward without them, you move forward with them only in a different way. Living life as best as I can each day is hard work, but knowing I carry Ben, and my sweet Lil Del with me in my heart makes life as I know it today possible! I know we would all love to have our children back, but there comes a time when you have to accept the fact that that's not gonna happen the way we want it too. But know this, no one can take them out of our heart, and nothing can stop the love!

Comment by Lynn Williams on September 1, 2014 at 4:45pm

Thanks Anne. Last year on this weekend was Kyra's memorial service, and I was very down yesterday. But today I got up and went kayaking with three girlfriends who's children were good friends of my daughters. I was able to laugh with them and talk about my daughter and their children. It was just what I needed. Some days it feels like you are walking through sludge and it is so hard to move, but if I allow myself to let go and get involved it pulls me out of a funk. Thanks for reminding me that learning to cope is an ongoing fight, we all have to move forward without our loved ones, if we want to live fully again.

Comment by Michelle H on September 1, 2014 at 2:43pm

Anne, beautifully and poignantly written. A great deal of wisdom from a mom who has lost two precious children. I believe you are serving your God-given purpose right here, on this site: giving hope and comfort to the heartbroken.

Comment by anne on September 1, 2014 at 1:01pm

To all, you can go on, and you will go on because there are many of us who have gone before you. Yes it sucks. Yes it hurts so bad sometimes you want to just give up, but I ask you what good will giving up do? What happens to those who come after us if we all just give up? I can't think of any worse pain than losing a child. I don't believe in hell anymore because I already know what hell is. Reach out. Ask those of us who have walked this journey questions about how we have survived, and the skills we have learned to cope. That's what we are here for. I have been where you are twice. I am willing to help in any way I can, but I won't help you give up. I understand the want to quit, but not the action. I am speaking from raw experience. The more you wish to die or for time to pass quickly so you can pass away, the longer, and the harder this road becomes. I'm not trying to be mean or hurtful. I'm trying to help. I realize we all have different ways of coping. We all have a different timeline in grief, but for everyone the first step is to realize what is possible and what is not. No you will never get over it. You will always want for your child. However I do know there will come a day when you will feel your child with you in your heart. There will always be little reminders of their smile, laugh, and existence. You won't always get what you want, but you will get what you need. Peace, and Love to all, and remember Love cannot be severed by death.

Comment by kim on August 31, 2014 at 11:30am

I know to ill go of a broken heart, I just wish with all my heart it was now. soon it will be 10 months, I just cant go on with this pain, I need shawn and I need to be with him. every time the phone rings I think its him,  sat and sundays I pick him up from work at 4. I look at the clock at 3 30 and think I better get ready, then I say hes not at work. I hate weekends, I hate living. I tell him every night if he needs me there ill go , and I will.  im so mad at god, yet I ask him every night to take me to shawn.  when I wake up in the morning I hate him more.  he took my life away from me

Comment by Jesse's Mom on August 30, 2014 at 10:02pm

Sundays are a hard day, when everyone is going home from church to be with their familys...they have no idea....I usually emotionally crash on sunday afternoon...been having a harder time going to the cemetery...at first I went alot...now, it reminds me of the finality of it all...I think I spend the first year or more waiting for my son to come home...like he was going to walk through my back door and ask for something to eat...but after 22 months of waiting my heart is starting to understand what my head may have known months ago...isn't it strange, how we can "know", yet not "know"...

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