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Comment by Michelle H on September 16, 2014 at 11:12am

Challenge, it's hard to understand such callous indifference to a person's suffering and grief. I'm so sorry you had to experience such disregard from people who should know better!

Comment by kim on September 16, 2014 at 10:51am

chelle, im so very sorry. you have a right to be pissed. I lost my only child my son 10 months ago.  the pain is unreal. hope we can talk soon hugs and love to you   kim

Comment by Lynn Williams on September 15, 2014 at 11:16am

Rachel,

What you are feeling is so normal, some people say that at three months the intensity of grief is felt stronger than when the death first occurs. You are not as numb from shock so reality hits you so forcefully, but it still feels like you have been suffering for forever. I had to get a perscription for Ambien from my doctor for the first nine months because I wasn't sleeping at all. I had to force myself to drink an ensure drink three times a day because I couldn't look at food at that time. Its been 13 months for me now and I am able to do so much more towards living my life. The pain and disbelieve are still with me, but I know I will survive as my daughter would want me to. Give the Compassionate  Friends a few more tries. Talking in person with others who have been through this so important. Teresa I hope it was good to be with your daughter this weekend to get through the anniversary of Michael's death. Dolly what a beautiful picture of Brandon you shared holding hands with the beautiful little girl next to him.She must miss him a lot too.  Thank you all for the kindness and support you always give when needed. 

Comment by Connie K on September 15, 2014 at 11:09am

Rachel

So sorry about the turn out at the CF meeting. Did the leader say it was unusual or that normally there are a certain number of people? Maybe because it was right after Labor Day holiday weekend. Don't be discouraged because every meeting is different and you should give it another shot. But we are always here for you on this site. Your daughters pics are beautiful. Hugs to you

Comment by Rachel on September 15, 2014 at 3:31am

Will I ever sleep again? Tuesday the 16th will be 3 months since I lost my beautiful girl. And yets it feels like it has been so much longer. The days and nights just drag on. Every day that passes I just miss her so much more. The hole just gets bigger.

I'm still feeling disappointed about my first grief support group meeting called “Compassionate Friends". I still can't beleive i was the only one who showed up that night, other than the group leader. I did share with her. I felt as though it was an affirmation to me that I was in fact in this journey “ALONE”.
Oh Lord, please send me someone to lean on, a good friend.

Comment by Teresa D. on September 14, 2014 at 10:54am

Brandon's picture made me smile. 

Thank you to everyone. 

I never thought I would depend on a group of strangers to help me threw one of the most darkest events in my life.

I appreciate everyone of you.

For those that have been in this room with me for the past 2 years.... THANK YOU!

For those who have entered in the past 2 years......I'm so sorry you had to join us.

My river of tears is quickly becoming an ocean.

Michael, Mommy loves you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Comment by Connie K on September 13, 2014 at 7:22pm

Vasanthi I just got home from singing with my choir at my first Maha Kirtan at the Vedante Center in Hollywood for Durrga Kali. I felt like I had visited a little part of India and thought of you. It was amazing with many choirs and audience all singing. I hope my sweet boy could hear it and feel it.

Dolly I think having a remembering place is so important. I have several. Every night since and every night until we die, we light a candle for Daniel by his pictures. I think we need something physical to be with in their physical absence. I am finally getting the teeshirt blanket made. I started emptying his drawers last week and got them all out and now have to get them ready to send off. Yes reality is definitely sinking in like you said LR.....

Comment by Lynn Williams on September 13, 2014 at 2:35pm

LR, Glimpsing Heaven IBSN is 978-1-4262-1514-8. It is a wonderful read. Love to all here, lynn

Comment by Jesse's Mom on September 13, 2014 at 2:12pm

Thanks Chelle, I will look for it there.

Dolly, I too have a spot in my home for my son Jesse. It is a small memorial space. My mom has done the same at her home. I also have a sister that passed in 2001. So my mom has this small area in her living room with their pictures and she lights candles there and has a daily prayer/mediation. I think whatever you find that helps you, keep doing it...

Comment by Jesse's Mom on September 13, 2014 at 1:47pm

Connie and Theresa, we are on almost the same timeline...October 10th will be the two year mark for me since my son, Jesse's passing.

 

I think Connie you said it very well, like there is some kind of void one is facing...

 

During these last two years I think in someway I believed Jesse was still coming home...my "head" acknowledged his passing but not my heart...

 

I am finding it harder to go to the grave site now...at first I went quite a bit...but the reality is sinking in too hard...

...seeing people I know in our small community and hearing their conversations of what their children are doing now...and I am reminded once again of all what is lost...

 

Someone posted not to think too far ahead...it probably is one of the few things that will be helpful to me...otherwise this all is just too overwhelming...

 

Someone mentioned the book from Jane Backrack...I could not find it...do you have an ISBN number? Thanks...

 

Wishing all a peaceful day...

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