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Comment by Dick on October 28, 2014 at 4:19pm

What really triggered me a few days ago is an issue I have had with the Boy Scouts of America. Both sons were Eagle Scouts, I guess I gave them both too much confidence. I donated a goodly sum to have a glass wall erected with both their names and ranks. I found out that it had been placed in storage. It really made me upset, that is not what the donation was for.

I was offered a plack, I turned down because it is not about me.

Comment by Dick on October 28, 2014 at 4:15pm

If you look at my pictures in my profile you will see both sons. The helicopter in the picture is a SH-60 that my son flies. He just recently was promoted to Lt. Commander; so he had to go out and take a dangerous position "to check the boxes".

Comment by Dick on October 28, 2014 at 4:12pm

Michelle,

After my last post I sent my Daughter in law a text to show me my granddaughter in action to make my day. I got some relief and a laugh at the video.

Unfortunately, my other son is deployed and I pray for his safe return. I think it would be the last straw if I lost him.

Comment by Michelle H on October 28, 2014 at 2:26pm

Dick, of course your life has meaning! You're a dad and grandfather and obviously have been very loving. Your belief in the importance of family attests to that. My own situation is full of regrets, too, but we need to forgive ourselves for real or imagined failings as well as those of our deceased sons.Chris never got to be a dad, either. It was something he really wanted, but his wife's I'll health made that impossible. It's another loss that we both have to endure. I'm sorry for your pain.

Comment by Dick on October 28, 2014 at 2:12pm

What really makes me sad is that I am now a grandfather or a little girl and she will never know her uncle or have cousins now. I am a great proponent of legacies and close families, all of this is very incongruent to me. It saddens me greatly, I will never have grandchildren from
Danny. It's a legacy thing that makes me feel my life had no meaning.

Comment by Dick on October 28, 2014 at 2:05pm

Yes, I am not posting much, just dwelling inside myself. I got so mad a few days ago, I just had to post something out of pain.

I had other things in my life trigger this pain. Regrets, guilt, anger, longing, etc. all mixed up in a great big weight on me, each pulling in different directions.

Comment by Michelle H on October 28, 2014 at 11:58am

Dick, I'm so glad you posted as I have wondered how you have been. I'm so sorry you are in a really dark place. I will pray for Danny to make his presence felt by you. Those signs can be comforting in the midst of our grief.

Comment by Lynn Williams on October 28, 2014 at 11:40am

I have to put down Kyra's cat today so hard, so many memories. Genna asked me if I was sad. I wanted to say when am I not sad.

Comment by Dick on October 26, 2014 at 9:46pm

This After Death Experience, I for three years if you count my son and 5 if you count my father, have been praying for a sign or contact or something. I no longer believe it. I am questioning a lot of things in my life. Maybe this is all it is? I am struggling here.

I need a burning bush in my life or a booming voice, please answer my prayers with a no at least.

Comment by Jesse's Mom on October 25, 2014 at 6:25pm

Thanks to those who responded. I just notice at night that my heart feels like it hurts, sometimes I wake up and my hands will be clutching at it.

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