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Comment by Connie K on November 27, 2014 at 3:45pm

Linda - I think it helps us stay connected - even if it's negative. I do the same thing. I can't help it if memories flood in, then it makes me remember more and more details I thought I had put to rest. Legal situations are making us revisit the car accident and all that goes with it. How could that driver have been so stupid? Why did I let him go? Why is he not here today. He's supposed to be. 

Unfortunately all of it is part of our experience now, just try not to stay focused on it too long.  This Sat will be 2 years since my sweet boy has left us - even though the date is Dec.1 it's always be that Sat night to me. I can not help but remember each day of that week leading up to it. Still and I know i shouldn't - I ask why did I say that or why didn't i do this. I could have changed everything, maybe. maybe not. We can't beat ourselves up because i know that's not what our children would want but all i can say is damn it's hard not too. I try to balance the tortured thoughts and longing in my chest and heart and soul with what i still have to be grateful for and most of all that I was so lucky to have my beautiful Daniel for as long as I did. Sending you all love and prayers and hope on this day.

Comment by Linda on November 26, 2014 at 4:15pm

why am I now revisiting the accident report that was posted all over the new? is this some kind of punishment I've developed for myself? why? I look up to see what events took place on the day she was born in 82. what's happening to me???!!!

Comment by Michelle H on November 26, 2014 at 10:58am

Thank you so much for all your kind words thoughts. I wasn't able to be on here to see them until today. It really doesn't get any easier, does it- My loving thoughts and prayers go to each and every one of you for a blessed and peaceful Thanksgiving.

Comment by Linda on November 26, 2014 at 8:59am

As these Holiday's approach I'm trying so very hard to keep my head straight. I still can't wrap my mind around the fact that my only child, my daughter Desiree' is gone. Never for me to see again while on this earth. How do I get through the "firsts"? The first Thanksgiving, the first Christmas, the first New Year?  Lord in Heaven I pray for peace of mind!

Comment by Sandy Hendrix on November 25, 2014 at 2:20pm

Totally agree with all that Tracy, my daughter the same, very happy and sure of herself, I don't know what happened and why Randy was so unhappy and had such low esteem.  I guess we'll never know.. Thanks for the support.

Comment by kim on November 25, 2014 at 2:12pm

Teresa, it is not thanks giving here, we had it last month in Canada, but my prayers are with you all to get through it. it was very hard for me.  hugs  kim

Comment by Teresa D. on November 25, 2014 at 1:47pm

I am thankful for the 29 years I did have with Michael.

I am thankful for the friends and family that have been supporting me.

I am thankful for all of you for sharing and for the support that you give.

Comment by Tracy Huston on November 25, 2014 at 11:04am

Thankful for you too, Connie..  I will be keeping everyone in my prayers and thoughts Thursday and well.. all week. Sucks that the holidays have to be so hard..

Comment by Connie K on November 25, 2014 at 10:18am

Good luck with Thanksgiving everyone. Just want you all to know that I am thankful for you.

Comment by Tracy Huston on November 24, 2014 at 10:14pm

I'm sorry hon I understand that. And I often wondered why my Jim was so tortured. My two girls are the best daughters anyone could ask for and they weren't unhappy. I always wonder if something happened to him that I'm unaware of or something.. He was always a people pleaser from a young age and I tried so hard to teach him to just be himself. But he never felt he could. I don't know. It's so confusing - ya know? I will forever be bewildered at what happened. Addiction is a terrible evil thing. I'm so sorry you're having to go thru this. It's just wrong. I hate it that there has to be a site like this but I'm thankful there is. It helps talking to others that really understand. Hang in there. (((Hugs))))

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