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Comment by Marie on February 7, 2015 at 9:24pm

Connie, you are so right about the dates. Yesterday was five months. As the dates approach, I think reality sneaks in. It feels like it will kill me...I pray it will, but then I keep waking up. It does seem much more difficult the week before the date of my son Taylor's passing.
Jill, welcome to the group. I am so sorry for your loss. Hugs!

Comment by Jesse's Mom on February 7, 2015 at 9:09pm

Thanks Maureen for your kind words. Sending gentle thoughts to us all...

Comment by Vasanthi S on February 7, 2015 at 2:54pm

I am so sorry for all of us :(

Comment by kim on February 7, 2015 at 2:21pm

jill im so very sorry, I to lost my beautiful son, my only child. the pain is like no other.  hugs to you   kim

Comment by Connie K on February 7, 2015 at 1:44pm

Jill, these dates are so hard to get through, sending you love and prayers

Comment by Jill E on February 7, 2015 at 1:41pm

Today is 2 months since I lost my son. Seems like so long ago the longest 2 months in my whole life but hurts like it was just yesterday.

Comment by Maureen on February 7, 2015 at 12:32pm

OMG Laurie, I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how hard it's been for you to have lost 2 sons.

Thank you for sharing. Thank you all for sharing. I'm so sorry for all of our losses. It's not fair. 

Comment by Jesse's Mom on February 5, 2015 at 8:29pm

I am on the same timeline as some of you here...it will be 28 months since my son, Jesse left. I read through some of the comments and I could have written them. After the numbness wears off, the sheer terror of this new reality keeps trying to invade my brain. I know I haven't accepted it, only to a degree. Each day waking up, there is the adjustment I have to do to face the world. Somedays I don't face anything, like today I just stayed in my pajamas and stayed home. My very old-time friend's son is going to get married in March,  her firstborn. I am forcing myself to attend the second celebration dinner. I am glad for her (and her son), but it makes my reality all the more real. The dinner will be close to the location where my other son, an infant son is buried. So maybe afterwards, I will go to his grave site. I feel like I have been backhanded across the galaxy and most days cannot get my footing. And I am very limited to who I will associate with these days. I don't need someone to yank the rug out from under me when there is so little to hold on to who has no understand the depth of what is like to loss a precious child. Sending gentle thoughts to all.

 

Mom loves you Jesse and Taylor, and always will...peace will be found one day but not here.

Comment by Marie on February 5, 2015 at 5:30pm

Maureen, I lost my son to heroin overdose on Sept. 6. I am so sorry for your loss. I know the last three years have been agony hoping this would be the time he turn it around. I am heartbroken and know the only ifs.. My thoughts and prayers are with you and all of the parents on this site. Hugs

Comment by Sandy Hendrix on February 5, 2015 at 2:18pm

Hi Connie, yes please may I have a prescription for that pill? The things people say are just too much, but we all know "they don't get it". I hope they never have to find out.

Maureen, I am so very sorry, there's no words that can express the pain we are feeling.  I lost my 18 year son to heroin on October 27th.  I can't believe it's real, I don't want it to be real.  The days are so hard and there is so much pain.  We just pretend to be ok when we are dying inside.  I read a book "I wasn't ready to say goodbye" which gives some good tips.

I cry, I have screamed many many times and really that's all we can do. Just one day at a time.  I guess maybe far in the future it might not hurt quite so much, but I know the pain will never go away.  I miss him so much, I want to see him and help him.  He wouldn't let us help him.  This time last year he was in rehab and I was so scared.  I guess there was a good reason to be scared. Now it's just pain.  We are all here for you though and for each other and I'm so very grateful for that.  Hugs and love.

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