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Comment by Dolly on February 17, 2015 at 8:45am

so AP we do understand and wish you didn't have to understand TOO... its all just too horrible ...

Comment by Dolly on February 17, 2015 at 8:44am

everything falls apart when we lose a child... everything... and nothing else matters much either... I used to worry about 'getting' old... then overnight I became old from my very core to my wrinkled spotted sagging face... everything about me feels old.... tired... one step at a time-ish... or no steps... just sleep.. if I CAN sleep... and the dread and fear of having something ELSE like this to happen.. I can barely believe I had a happy life once...

Comment by Jill E on February 17, 2015 at 7:51am

AP-I hold on to the hope that I will see him again. I pray I will get to see him again, it's what keeps me going, that and my youngest son. Just a few short months ago our worlds seemed "normal" then all comes crashing down. Thank goodness once again for this site. Here is a place you can let loose. Yesterday was a "bed" day (a day where all I can do is stay in bed, no energy, no nothing)for me. Today I have a doc appt so I have to get up. Here I go rambling again. Please know I care and you can count on me/us. Hugs...Peace

Comment by Teresa D. on February 17, 2015 at 7:35am

AP, we are all here to support you, listen to you and you can repeat yourself as much as you need to.  HUGS!

Comment by AP on February 16, 2015 at 10:19pm

Jill - Thank you for responding to my comment, I appreciate you reaching out and making a connection. I too am here for you. I read about your son, and of course, I have no words. I know the feeling of one minute "life is beautiful" and the next minute it is "a nightmare," with no escape because I am awake, it is real. Though our children's passing will never make sense, I am constantly aware that my daughter is not here and that death is final in this world, but I do have faith that I WILL see her again.

Comment by Jill E on February 16, 2015 at 9:38pm

AP-I am so very sorry for your lose. I lost my son a little over two months ago. I haven't been on this site too long and it can be quite confusing. Discussions, comments, blogs and chats, I am just try to figure out everyday and sometimes I can't get where I want to go. Oh yeah and there is the mobile view and desktop. The important thing is that we are hear to listen. You can talk about anything you want. I have done a quite a bit of rambling mostly but I am so happy that I found this site. We all share the absolutely the worst thing a parent can go through. We will listen. Hugs and Peace

Comment by AP on February 16, 2015 at 9:24pm

Figuring out this site. This is the first time I'm doing this. It is probably good for me because how many times can my friends and family listen to the same thing - "I WANT MY DAUGHTER!" It will be 8 months on the 18th. I'm only 40 years old. If I live until I am 90, I'll spend most of my life without the most magnificent girl I ever met, my beautiful daughter, the love of my life.

Comment by Maureen on February 16, 2015 at 9:59am

My son went through great lengths to hide things from me. My spouse tells me that sons do things to protect their mothers. They don't want us to worry.

Comment by Maureen on February 16, 2015 at 9:58am

I promise you that he knew it was causing him problems. He was just really good at hiding it. You say or hint that you find it hard to believe your daughter-in-law didn't notice anything. I don't know if she did or didn't but when I say problems, it can be anything...financial even. She likely would have known something but maybe didn't relate it to his drinking or to alcoholism.

Comment by Maureen on February 16, 2015 at 9:54am

Me too Jill! I cannot sleep. I will go days without sleeping. I have aged 10 years for sure and have gained around 30 lbs in the last 3 months!

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