Comment

Comment by Jill E on February 17, 2015 at 8:45pm

Dolly don't you dare apologize for anything. We need each other, I know that I depend on my friends here even if it is for no other reason than to vent, cry and ramble (as I do every time). With tons of love and hugs. Please feel free always to let loose here.

Comment by Dolly on February 17, 2015 at 7:19pm

I sound terrible... just dragging everybody down.... sorry ... some days I just seem to go off a little...

Comment by Dolly on February 17, 2015 at 7:18pm

at least I'm retired and can stay home ..well that and medical appointments and food shopping ...which is too much for me already

Comment by Sharon on February 17, 2015 at 7:05pm

I know how you feel. My mind is spinning all of the time, then my heart starts palpitating... When I try to eat, there's a lump in my throat. I only want to eat sweets and crap. Doctor gave me Xanax, but I only take 1/2 and only at night. I'm dreading going back to work next week.

Comment by Dolly on February 17, 2015 at 5:56pm

and KUDOS to your husband Connie..... some LIGHT in the darkness.. ALWAYS feels good to hear GOOD things happening to those I have grown to love in here...

Comment by Dolly on February 17, 2015 at 5:55pm

I LOVE that you message your son.... I talk to Brandon in bits and pieces all the time... sort of like I talk to God... I can't do the sit down long involved praying.. never could.. it always sounded so pat and dry and without passion... like I'm almost reciting it from memory ... and its sort of like that because the needs seem to go on and on and it seems like the prayers will never be answered except with 'no'... but if I don't even ASK???.... and I don't dare let myself really talk to Brandon for more than just little hellos and what are you up to? and just trying to sense him on some level when I am playing music I think he led me to.... I don't care if other people think I'm crazy anymore.. what does that mean you think?

Comment by Dolly on February 17, 2015 at 5:49pm

I don't think I ever knew how happy I was... I didn't appreciate the happiness I had enough... I even took it for granted sometimes and gambled with it in a way... like fighting about nothing important really... being all insecure and needy when my guys were relying on me for their very LIVES and I dared to worry about ME??? I have to struggle with hating myself.. I have had this all my life... and then I get so MAD at myself because even HATING myself is all ME ME ME.... I just am so totally clueless anymore....

Comment by Connie K on February 17, 2015 at 3:31pm

Thanks for your kind words for my hubby.

Comment by Connie K on February 17, 2015 at 3:29pm

Sandy my Lunesta is 2ml. Usually lets me sleep through the night (with only one bathroom  trip) then able to go back to sleep and wake up normally. But it seems like it's working less so yeah it's not good to take them every night. So every other day or so, I'm exhausted! Sometimes I'll try a benedryl which doesn't seem to work anymore either. I think I'm going to try walking later at night  to see if that helps. Onlyhen I am singing  or engrossed in music I can rest my mind.

Comment by Marie on February 17, 2015 at 3:26pm

Connie, That is so cool about your husband's award. I know that even when good things happen it is sad too. I always want to tell my son stuff about my day, and it makes me cry to know I can't...hugs!

• ‹ Previous
• 1
• …
• 175
• 176
• 177
• 178
• 179
• …
• 757
• Next ›
• Page