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Permalink Reply by rhonda jean on May 3, 2016 at 5:52am

Omg how stressful. So sorry for you...what happened?

Permalink Reply by HelenB on May 3, 2016 at 10:17am

Thx, yes, very. Thank you for ur reply.

Permalink Reply by HelenB on September 13, 2016 at 7:26pm

Thx Rhonda. It's been 20 months since I watched my mom die of an overdose. My mom had everything and nothing. I feel like she took most of me with her. I'm trying a support group I found nearby next time they meet. I need to find a way to live with this. I'm not my mom, but I loved her so much... More than she loved me cuz she didn't love herself. Maybe that's where I need to start, remembering why I used to be confident & what I like about myself regardless of her, & taking that bacK. she hurt me & wore me down cuz of her issues. Ironic as it sounds maybe I need to get over HER issues. It's like ppl who want us to feel better already. I almost joke "deal with it, get over it.. It's my problem, if u can't be helpful. " well, I can't help her now & couldn'tvwhen she was alive. So, yes, I miss my mom (more the mom she couldn't be)but I got on with my life after high school. I need to find what I feel I lost cuz I'm still here.

As for what happened with my grief counselor, she just kept replaying the traumatizing tapes & seemingly capitalizing on it. She's hard up for cash. It's hard to talk abt. I don't want to replay that tape again.

You know when ppl see u as vulnerable for once, it's easy to fall into that role & it is hard to take yourself back, but we are alive and have the right to live at least feeling at peace if not completely ever who we were.

Permalink Reply by BLUEBELL on March 4, 2017 at 5:18pm

What is a trauma tape?

Bluebell

Permalink Reply by nouse on July 25, 2017 at 10:44pm

therapists are useless it takes about 20 to find the right one

Permalink Reply by rhonda jean on July 26, 2017 at 7:26am

Agreed - it can take a long time to find the right fit