The other day I was watching a movie and a character was talking about a woman who was separated from her husband, he said she was not doing well and that's what happens ''when you have only one thing in life and you lose it''.

That's how I feel. My Mom was my reason to live. She was the special person in my life. I do have some other family, like my godparents, who I know love me as their child, but it is simply not the same.

I have tried to go back to the life I had before…

It's been one and a half years since my sister and best friend left me to be in heavenly places. This coming weeking will be the second birthday of hers that I cannot celebrate.

There are some nights when I lie alone, I can see her so clearly. I see what she looked like when she smiled, what she looked like when she slept, and what she looked like when she was with me. We both had a content look on our faces. We were happy to be in each other's company.

I also…

Love is a useless word,

when the one you love

could not be heard

on the morning of a gentle dove

Mother,

love is a…

I see my wife gasping her last breaths (May 26,2012) I was visting her in the hosp for over a month.She recieved a pace maker and new heart vales.Medically her insides went bad she was on dialysis for over 5 yrs. For some reason while in the hosp I made a decsion that I never thought I would make.I gave the hosp staff permission to take out her breathing tube and she died. It didn,t faze me untile the 2 or three month.Now my mind is running all the memories of our life together over and over…

Another morning and the day begins to dawn

My heart cries out, please God I can’t go on

Pull the blinds, please close the drapes

For my broken heart, there is no escape

I miss your laughter, I miss your smile

This pain will last much more than a little while

I know your happy and you couldn’t stay

I hear those words “Nah I’m Good” now enjoy your day

This advice I would usually take and move on

But there is no joy since you’ve…

Another morning and the day begins to dawn

My heart cries out, please God I can’t go on

Pull the blinds, please close the drapes

For my broken heart, there is no escape

I miss your laughter, I miss your smile

This pain will last much more than a little while

I know your happy and you couldn’t stay

I hear those words “Nah I’m Good” now enjoy your day

This advice I would usually take and move on

But there is no joy since you’ve…

Good Morning my precious Dustin Lee,

Today is Sunday around 8 a.m.  It looks as if it is more like 6 a.m.. There is a lot of thunder and lightning and it is dark out. You know I have never been fond of days like this. You on the other hand would sleep in and enjoy the extra rest. Like Kris and Josh told the news reporter when they came out to the house,” He worked hard, played hard, and rested hard”. What a true statement. Even though we spoke and text every…

My dad died when I was 9 and my big brother was 18, 6foot 6, and strong as an ox.  I never knew life without him in it.  And now he is gone.  Not sure how much more of this I can take.

I recently got married to my fiancee of 2 years....about 2 weeks ago or so now...and it was a very lovely wedding, my mother was there which made me very happy, but the whole time I wished my dad was there to see me and give me away. I like to feel like he was. I love you papa. <3

Thank you for the hugs and prayers. I don't know how to message you back. It says you have blocked it.

i had a strange dream abot my dad he woz a super hero i no its a kind of thng kids dream of he com bac to save live but i wud not let go sayng i lost u onse i dont wont to loze u again 

but he saed he woz not gong any wear he woz hear to stay

wen i woke up it felt so real like it realyy hapend it did i no dreams feal real…

Well here it is. Memorial Day. Comes every year the same time The difference is this year my heart is as dark and lonely as the ocean in the middle of a moonless night. The clouds are dark and they remind me of how hard people try to overcome the devastating loss of someone they love more than life itself. It will pass they say. It will get better I have heard a million times. I have said those same words myself a million times. They do get better, but for how long? Just long enough to start…

I lost my husband on April 26th, exactly 1 week later my father passed away.  Today was a very tough day being Memorial Day.  I lost my mother 6 years ago and its still hard on me.  We were very close and i miss her very much.  Now i miss them all everyday.  My husband and I usually did a lot of planting on this long weekend, While my father sat on the deck and watched us. This year it was just me, so I decided to make a memorial garden for them. It felt right to do something like that. .

I'm just realizing how badly my sister's death has affected me. I feel like I'm spiraling out of control and I can't stop myself.

I thought I was being really strong and doing a great job of holding myself together but I couldn't have been more wrong. There has been a perfect storm brewing inside me since I got that phone call and I'm only now seeing it.

I started smoking again (I had quit last April cold turkey and was doing so well), my drinking has increased a lot, I'm…

I dont know how I am going to make it through it.........she was supposed to be there.............all I am doing is crying and wanting her back & missing her so much...........this is just wrong, she wasnt supposed to go before us or her parents........I dont know how I am going on everyday, other than the crying for the last 6 weeks, and looking forward to sleep..... :(

Up all night,now making phone calls way too early.  I live on the west coast of Canada, a sister in Alberta, one in Ontario, one in New Brunswick.  All different time zones so by the time we got the news here it was too late to call any of them last night.  Morning comes 4 hours earlier in New Brunswick than here so I started there and moved westward telling each one after the other that our brother is dying.  2 days maybe more if the antibiotics stop his kidneys shutting down temporarily. …

My wife died last year in May she got so bad in the hospital and would have lived a miserable life after what the hospital did to her that I had the breathing tube removed .For a whole year I was numb to the fact she passed away. In the past few months memories of her dying in the hospital come flooding back,with an increase in weight from eating the wrong food. I find I loved her a lot, but during the marriage it can be described as dysfuctional as well as two people caring for each other.…