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Seeking Prayers and Well wishes

Hello all...

I just found out this afternoon a dear friend has colon cancer. She was the one who went me to the hospital when my son, Jesse transitioned in Oct of 2012.

She and her husband own a company that I was just added as an employee about two weeks ago...she wants me to manage the office tomorrow. So I will wing it I guess.

Her surgery is tomorrow evening, at 6 pm. Warm thoughts and prayers welcomed. Her name is Kim. Thank you all in advance.

Added by Jesse's Mom on December 29, 2015 at 7:20pm — 4 Comments

A second opinion(s)

I feel I've had another experience that he's with me but I need to know I'm not the only one seeing it ... ?

 Last night I went to bed. I have a sleep app on my tablet I use. I opened it up but set it aside as I forgot I was going to read for a bit. Once finished I put the book down, picked up my tablet, unlocked the screen and saw red scribbles that were not there prior. This scribble app has come open at least once before and I don't even know how to pull it up. But I immediately…

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Added by rachel_micele on December 28, 2015 at 3:00pm — 3 Comments

Lost momma

I can't think straight. We still have the funeral to go through and I just want to say "Do what you would do for your child" but I don't know if that would be........appropriate.

Added by Joy on December 26, 2015 at 12:25pm — No Comments

balloons

 today I let 3 balloons go, red my sons fav colour, x mas one and one that said I love you always and forever. I do it every x mas and his birthday. I know in my heart he got them, I watched them till I could not see them anymore.  I have cryed all day , please make this day end, I love you shawn forever,  mom

Added by kim on December 25, 2015 at 3:28pm — 2 Comments

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Added by dream moon JO B on December 25, 2015 at 2:34pm — No Comments

It's Christmas time and my heart is lonely.

Well I want to wish everyone out there a safe day.I know how much sadness one can have inside them as I live with it everyday. My mom loves Christmas, all the lights,the baking and family .All the happiness that should be there .But is not there anymore.

I have been able to hide my feelings for the most part but I know with my moms birthday on the new years eve, it will be a different story. Mom I will do my best to stay strong. I have planned a nice dinner ,with cake and will share…

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Added by Kim L S on December 25, 2015 at 2:17am — No Comments

wish I could give her daddy back x

So in 45 mins it will be my daughter Honeys 10th birthday,  the ballons are up the presents are wrapped but the one present I can not give her is her daddy back, she went to bed sobbing saying she doesn't want any gifts only her daddy, so do I more than anything but listening to her crying I realise that she needs him more than me which I selfishly sometimes forget due to my needing and missing him, and then I'm reminded of my sheer anger how bloody cruel life is again, shes only 9 for…

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Added by joanne on December 22, 2015 at 5:41pm — 2 Comments

Goodbye, and thanks!

These past five years have been so hard on me that I have completely changed as a person. I lost the person I loved most. It doesn't matter if that person is your mother, father, daughter, or son. It doesn't even matter if the one you loved most walked on two legs or four, such as in the case of my "dam" dog as someone here rudely implied. I have lost nearly my entire family in the past five years. My poor little dog was about all I had left. My husband is ill, and my only child has stomped…

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Added by Felicia on December 21, 2015 at 7:28pm — 7 Comments

pain full holidays

tonight I was sitting with my husband talking, when he told me our friends don't come around here anymore it was because of me, I was depressing. hating x mas and everything to do with it. that hurt me a lot, I cryed and went to my room,  I just don't feel he understands, he wants everything to go back to the way it was, THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN, I told him to just go, leave me alone.  shawns the love of my life and hes all I need. I pray to him to take me home, to hold me and never let me…

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Added by kim on December 21, 2015 at 6:18pm — No Comments

Sundays ...

Every day is hard and miserable but Sunday seems to be the worst. I have thought to myself that I need to find something to do but by then I'm so tired from the prior week, exhausted from life, I don't want anything to do. I'm ready for something meaningful and I only want Gary. So I just get that much more depressed.

What a waste of time! Waste of a day. Waste of a life. Waste of an existence.

For all these months I couldn't accept Gary died, couldn't say the "d" word. Still…

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Added by rachel_micele on December 21, 2015 at 3:30am — No Comments

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Added by dream moon JO B on December 20, 2015 at 4:03pm — 1 Comment

my son

I cant stop crying, to know  x mas will soon be here, and you wont., my depression is getting worse, I passed out the other night, for the first time. I just miss you so much and need  you so very bad. I hope  every night you hear me, im  so  proud of you and proud to be your mom forever.with out  you shawn there is no x mas and there never will be.  there will be no laughter, or smiles.  just emptiness here and in my heart. I pray to be with you, and hope its soon.  I cant live without you…

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Added by kim on December 19, 2015 at 7:04pm — No Comments

This has taken years to write but will take only a few minutes to read...

Apologue:

~ Little Bird ~



Let me preface this by saying from the time my daughter was a year

old, all those close to her called her by her nickname "Bird". It

suited her to a Tee, because she was forever chirping and flitting

about, always so trusting and full of joy. This is what happened 6

months after she passed away...



It was just a few days after I'd moved in to a new house when the

most curious thing…

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Added by Carole Phillips on December 19, 2015 at 11:17am — 4 Comments

Letters through the veil

Well, it's been awhile since I've posted. Things have been up and down...mostly down. But I

found a way to ease my sorrow just a bit for a short time. I write emails to my Nancy that, of

course, I never send. I've only done 2 so far but they have helped me get through another 

lousy, despairing, tear filled day. When I do that, I feel like she is with me. Almost leaning

over my shoulder and telling me things to write. I know that doesn't make sense but it…

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Added by Mel Royer on December 18, 2015 at 2:30pm — 1 Comment

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Added by dream moon JO B on December 18, 2015 at 1:00pm — 2 Comments

How to go on without my husband

I am so lost! I lost my husband just about 2 months ago to Melanoma cancer. We had been married for 24 years, he was my everything! He was my soul mate, best friend, we worked together, we were never apart, and we loved it that way! I miss all the million little cute things in a day, we never grew up, we were like kids playing, leaving cute notes, setting up cute little scenarios with our little beanie babies, just for a laugh! We made life fun together!!! We never were able to have kids, so… Continue

Added by Lauri on December 15, 2015 at 6:46pm — 5 Comments

No title

I feel like there is so much to say but yet I have nothing to say. Another damn oxymoron, nothing new in this hell. I will type anyway.

I still can't believe Gary is physically gone. I say that in a more solemn way. Before, my mind nor my emotions could wrap itself around this concept. It was the nightmare. The bad dream you can't wake up from. Feeling like every part of my existence is living on some distant planet while at the same time in some bizzare, twilight zone my body was…

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Added by rachel_micele on December 12, 2015 at 2:00am — 1 Comment

How do I Survive after his Homicide?

Added by Ladi B on December 11, 2015 at 2:57pm — No Comments

How do I Survive after his Homicide?

Added by Ladi B on December 11, 2015 at 2:57pm — No Comments

Birthday

Today is my husband's birthday. It's the first without him. I can't stop crying and I just want to bury myself under my covers all day. His coworkers are having a lunch today in his memory and I'm okay with that. It's just really hard having the "first" things come around and I have to try to manage without him.

Added by Tina Russell on December 10, 2015 at 10:26am — 2 Comments

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